17 weeks panic-please reassure me if you can!

[rm16]

Hi everyone

I have made it to 17 weeks and one day! I am still terrified of things going wrong after I lost my first pregnancy at 11 weeks.
I had my last scan at 13 weeks and don't get another until 19 weeks. I couldn't even get in to see a midwife until the 4th of May as they are so overstretched. It feels like FOREVER since I had a check up, and although I felt confident for a while as my bump started to grow I am now panicking again...

The thing is, I was sure I was feeling little wiggles of movement last week, and they were getting quite regular for a couple of days, then, since friday, NOTHING! I am of course working myself in to a complete panic over it. I called my doctor but they don't have dopplers so couldn't help. I'm at my wits end and desperate to know if my baby is ok, I am so terrified of losing another one, especially having got this far.

I felt a lot of aches on Sunday, almost like period aches, so I am hoping that might be stretching pain and he might have been having a growth spurt?? So maybe he's asleep a lot and not moving much?!!

Have any of you guys that have had successful pregnancies experienced something like this? Any ideas what I can do to calm down? I would gladly pay to go private rather than be this stressed but I live abroad and there are no private midwives here.....and my ob told me I shouldn't buy a doppler so my husband is dead against getting my own doppler although I think it would calm me down at times like this! I don't know if you can even buy them in this country

Thanks for any help

 

[KahluaCupcake]

Until I was able to feel constant movement that was undeniably the baby, not gas or anything like that, the doppler was the only thing that kept my sanity. Even now, if he's not moving as much as I'd like (but it hasn't been long enough to warrant a trip to L&D), I'll pull out the doppler and hear not only the heartbeat but also the fact that he IS moving around, even if I can't feel it.
The country you're in doesn't matter....I ordered the Angelsounds doppler through eBay, and I believe it came from China.
I know your husband says no, but really....I'd suggest it. PAL is terrifying....I think if I didn't have the doppler, I'd have spent all of second trimester making up reasons to run to the doctor just for reassurance.
Good luck