18 weeks and still scared!!!!

[madmax]

Hello everyone, I haven't posted for a while, but maybe there is someone else out there like me?
I have had 2 mcs (1 mmc) at the 12 week mark. I am now 18 weeks pg with a baby girl!
I should be really happy, downs testing came back 1 in 1850 which I and the mw thought was great ( I am just 37!) all scans so far have been fine.
I am on clexane and asprin as I have been diagnosed with a blood clotting disorder Factor V Leiden.
Thing is, I just can't feel happy? I worry all the time! I have a doppler at home which helps to a certain extent, I just can't seem to believe or accept that finally my DH and I are going to have our own baby.
I haven't even announced it at work (altho it's fairly obvious!)
I didn't know I was pg with my DD until 4 months and I was out partying, drinking alot and smoking and she was just fine!
I am so grateful that I managed to become pg again, but I look so damn miserable all the time, when I should be really happy.
Just wondering if anyone else has felt the same and somehow managed to ourcome it?
Thanks for taking the time to read.

 

[SabrinaKat]

I'm 17wks tomorrow and still worry all the time (had an m/c at 7-8 wks two years ago) -- I think it's normal because we know too well the worst that can happen....

best wishes

 

[TTC Again]

Me! I'm 18 weeks (my ticker is a bit off) and still not feeling 100% confident. We finally started telling everyone and I'm so scared that something will go wrong now...like we are jinxing it by telling people - but it was so obvious that I felt I had to tell.

I have my anatomy US next Thursday and am sooo anxious for it to hurry up and get here. I'm really not feeling a lot of movement and anything I have felt I am constantly questioning whether I actually felt it or it was in my head, so I can't say for certain that I've felt anything from this LO yet. that makes me even more nervous.

Please let everything be okay for us all!!!

 

[TTC Again]

I also was diagnosed with Factor V clotting disorder....I take daily injections of Lovenox. Was also on progesterone the whole first trimester. After going through 3 MCs I'd do anything they tell me to do that might help keep this baby!!!!