3 failed IUIs. How do you cope?

[Jlh1980]

I hope everyone can enjoy their weekend free of thoughts of ttc ( yeah right but we can try)! Sunshine you especially we are all rooting for you, don't pay attention to symptoms bc most people at this stage don't have any. Just FYI when I asked about pricing for ivf I threw in there that since we don't have insurance we are also considering other clinics and they then took 20% off the price....... It's worth a shot! I'm heading in for my second iui of the back to back series then back to the waiting game

 

[Jlh1980]

So total of 39 mil sperm and 3 eggs , it's crazy how this doesn't work everytime!!! Either way I'm signing up for my ivf class, I'm tired of waiting

 

[Sunshine24]

Good luck Jlh!!

Please say a small prayer that this weekend flies by for me. I want Monday to be here so I can KNOW , but I'm also so nervous to find out.

 

[Sunshine24]

Hi guys! Me, again! Sorry to clog the feed, I just have an update ( no, I didnt POAS! Hahahah )

My doc just called and let me know after my transfer they were able to freeze 3 5-day embryos. She said it was very good and fairly rare. I dont have a lot of experience with all that, so I'm going with her word. Is that good? Is it a normal result or not?

I am hoping that IVF #1 WORKS but it's a huge relief now to know if it doesn't we have some frozen back-up plans waiting for us!

Any idea if the fact that 3 were able to be frozen indicates a higher probability of success for this IVF I am currently waiting on?

 

[StayHopeful]

Sunshine, so happy things are looking good for you! I'm saying prayers for you for Monday!

I talked to the doctor yesterday and was kind of surprised to find out that we really need to start some pre-IVF things next cycle, so this is our last cycle of actually trying naturally. Because of my PCOS, my cycles right now are pretty long. So after this AF (depending on when it comes), we may just have to induce another period pretty quickly so that everything is timed right for starting my IVF BCP in May. So chances are I won't have a chance to o in April, we'll have to induce a period before then. I feel like all of a sudden things are moving quickly and it's a a little overwhelming. And my body keeps confusing me this week, I've been cramping and nauseous for a few days and now my bbs feel tender, the way they normally do after o, but my bbt is still low.

 

[SashimiMimi]

StayHopeful this always seems to be the case with IVF. You are never prepared for it and it feels so rushed! This was the case for me... I was scheduled to do a lap but didn't understand why and wanted more info, so booked a consult with the doctor and he discovered my low reserve and said a lap would be too risky, that I was running out of time and 2 weeks later I was doing IVF!! It was so overwhelming but I found way to centre and relax myself. I'm excited for you and feel grateful to be following everyone's IVF journey!!!

Sunshine that's an amazing freeze rate!!! I have spoken to people where no eggs freeze! You are having the all-star IVF cycle this is great!! While I do think this is it for you I think it's amazing that not only do you have a back up plan but you could use those eggs for future babies! I'm high fiving you all over the place!!

 

[ttcbaby117]

Sunshine - that is so awesome that you have some frosties!!!! that is amazing. I am sooooo hoping you get the bfp on Monday!

Jlh - Yes I feel the same way. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed and scared right now. See below...

AFM - AF started this morning so baseline is on Monday and BCPs also start on Monday. I woke up this morning kinda feeling a bit of dred. I am afraid to start with all of these meds and what kind of long term effect it could have on me etc....anyway, I keep trying to find a way to say that this wouldn't be happening unless it was meant to, though it is hard to believe it at this point. Again, you took the words right out of my mouth JLH.....overwhelmed!!!!

 

[Sunshine24]

Sunshine - that is so awesome that you have some frosties!!!! that is amazing. I am sooooo hoping you get the bfp on Monday!

Jlh - Yes I feel the same way. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed and scared right now. See below...

AFM - AF started this morning so baseline is on Monday and BCPs also start on Monday. I woke up this morning kinda feeling a bit of dred. I am afraid to start with all of these meds and what kind of long term effect it could have on me etc....anyway, I keep trying to find a way to say that this wouldn't be happening unless it was meant to, though it is hard to believe it at this point. Again, you took the words right out of my mouth JLH.....overwhelmed!!!!

ttc-- it is very overwhelming for sure....the way I was able to remain calm and positive through it all was to think of it in phases. First BCP, then Lupron, then stims, retrieval, trasnfer, wait. Take it one day at a time, don't think "what if" ( as much as you can! ) and just breathe. It is NOT nearly as bad as it seems it will be, I promise. And just think, it will be more than worth it in the end!

 

[ttcbaby117]

Thanks Sunshine....that means a lot! I do need to find a way to just relax and allow this process to happen.

 

[Sunshine24]

Whenever I felt upset or worried or ANGRY that it had to come this for me instead of just having a baby naturally I reminded myself what a ROCKSTAR I was/ am ( we ALL are! ) for dealing with all these infertility issues and still having strength to make it through the day, smile, go to work, and carry on. Honestly, it's pretty bad@$$ that we can get through this, ya know? In a way, it's something to be proud of yourself for! Of course I'm still a wreck inside thinking about my test on Monday---but be proud of your strength, and, even if you're faking it---it still counts! Most people would crumble under this pressure---for some reason the women on here can get through it and be strong. Thats something to be proud of!

 

[ttcbaby117]

That is such a great way to look at it Sunshine. You are so right....we do endure quite a bit with infertility and often it is suffering in silence because you don't want to make this kind of thing to public.

 

[Chris_25]

Thanks Sash and BMA!!!

My test is Monday morning, I should know by noon or so....

I am holding off on a HPT at this point because I'm totally off coffee and wine ( two of my most fave things! ) and I feel if I got a negative one I'd be tempted to have some wine....and what IF I was preggo but the test didnt show it yet, ya know? So Im just going to wait....

Luckily I have a really busy weekend! Looking forward to Monday though ( who can ever say that?! ) I have acupuncture last night too and that was AWESOME.

Having failed SO many times before, it's hard to even imagine getting a good result, but I'm trying to stay positive!

I know how hard it could be to ever imagine a positive after getting so many negatives. I never been pregnant either. I am staying positive and hopeful for you! Good feeling about this

 

[Jlh1980]

Sunshine I will say 5 prayers for you each day this week, I'm not religious but hey it can't hurt! I don't know much about the freeze rate but my friend did IVF and the first time she miscarried then had another which gave her a baby girl, then because she had 3 frozen embryos they just popped them in 2 years later and she ended up with twins. So I think it is great you have 3 good embryos frozen that eliminates all the painful parts. If it doesn't work this time (I'm sure it will) it will work one of these times. The majority of unexplained infertility and endo, eventually get pregnant. Plus you have already been through the worst of it, the injections, surgery, and the retrieval!!

TTC, I'm right there with you, but I'm so impatient I like things to move fast. Thinking about the next step is comforting to me, its when there isn't one that I worry. We are all still really early in this assisted fertility process, even thought we have been trying on our own for what feels like forever.

 

[want2beamamma]

Hi Ladies,

I've never joined in this group but I mostly just browse through. I've done 2 IUI's so far and am trying a third in April. I happened to come across what Sunshine had said and just wanted to say you are SO right You have given me a different way to think of things when I feel down or have negative thoughts So wonderful to have such a wonderful bunch of ladies on this forum to talk to. Great support!!!!

 

[CCClomidQueen]

Sunshine- how are you feeling? I can not wait until Monday!!!!

Ttcbaby- that is awesome that you got them to bring the price down.

Cclomidqueen- how did you respond on the clomid? I only ever got 1 good follicle. But with injectables I got three! I was so happy! when you do injectables you will also be doing the trigger shot, right?? thats a gaurantee that you will ovulate! My insurance covers a lot of the meds too, for my iui's with clomid the meds were $45, and with the injectables it was $100, and my quote for everything ill need for ivf is $271. To me, that's amazing and helps me a great deal wrapping my head around the thought of how much this is costing!!

I responded really good to clomid I always had 2-4 large follicles. But after the lap we're going to start the injectables assuming they don't find anything awful. Iv not had to pay for my visits or meds thus far, but I called my insurance today and If I needed IVF they will only pay for the meds, monitoring,labs and consult not the procedure. not sure how much the procedure alone is and if this is really saving much if it should come to IFV.

 

[ttcbaby117]

CC I am not sure if this will help but this is from the original quote from my RE's office. It can give you a guide line....

Egg Retrieval - 1585.00
Egg Retrieval Lab Component - 845.00
Egg Transfer - 742.00
Egg Transfer Lab Component - 487.00

I left out all of the other stuff cuz it sounds like you will be covered by your insurance for it.

 

[fisher640]

Sunshine. How on EARTH have you not POAS. You're a rockstar for that alone. I was always caving by 10dpo, and I never did IVf!

 

[Sunshine24]

fisher-- NO CLUE!! I literally have never exercised this much restraint in my life, I am the LEAST patient person in the world. I have had 4 IUIs and a year before that of TTC natural and I literally POAS every single time.

I promised my husband I wouldnt and I actually kept it ( so far, but it's Friday night and the weekend will fly... ) I get sooooo down when I POAS and get a BFN he thought it would be better to just get ONE result instead of POAS like every day leading to the test. I used to start like 11dpo and test every day until the test. Torture. PLUS once we got a false positive ( meds still in system after 13 days ) and it was waaaay more devastating than a regular old BFN. So I cant go through that again . Ugh!

We're hosting a big dinner party at our house tomorrow so I know I will be busy all day getting ready for that, and then busy at night w the party and then I purposely jam packed my day on Sunday too so I dont even have a chance to POAS or think about it. And I purposely made sure I didnt have any in the house before IVF or I'd be doing it right now!

Thanks for the support!

 

[ttcbaby117]

Ohhh enjoy your dinner party....what is on the menu?

 

[Sunshine24]

Italian!