I've had such horribly mixed emotions. My husband and I so desperately want a baby, and I thought we stood a really good chance. We dtd everyday, I tracked my ovulation, and I live a healthy lifestyle. I'm 28 and dh is 33. I, of course, did a ridiculous amount of symptom spotting (as did Hubby!)... We both totally convinced ourselves I was pregnant.
I'd had a preconception appointment, which included a pap smear. Everything looked good, we were told. But I just got the news that I had poor results. I go in tomorrow for a colposcopy, cervical punch biopsy, and endocervical curettage (they scrape the tissue between your cervix and uterus for a biopsy) to check for cancer.
AF came yesterday. I was so disappointed, but maybe it was for the best since I wouldn't want my cervix scraped and poked at if we had conceived. I'm just really hoping the outcome of tomorrow doesn't affect our ability to conceive or make us delay ttc. I know being healthy is the most important thing, but gosh... We want a baby so badly. It's hard to be logical when your heart is full of hope to start a family. I'm keeping my chin up, though. We'll have a baby, one way or another. For now, two human and four dogs make for a beautiful and happy life.
Peace, love, and baby dust to all of you ladies.