39 and trying to conceive:-(

[Bonnie1990]

Positive-can you get in with a therapist somewhere quickly?
I think you at the minimum need someone to talk to. Maybe your IVF center has someone? Or do you have an EAP program through work?

Depression is tough. Please find someone soon before it gets worse.
Of course we are here too but it's not the same
Hugs

 

[BabyBean14]

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[PositiveUs]

First of all, thank you for your support. I have seen a therapist for at least 2 1/2years now but I have been seeing her very sporadically the last 8 months. I haven't seen her since June. So here is where the majic happens...
I call the counselor's office yesterday morning to ask for an appointment and they say there is an opening during lunch hour from work next wed.
I left it at that. I didn't want to beg for an earlier appointment or make a big deal out of how bad I felt (for some reason).
The therapist calls me a couple hours later stating that there was a cancellation that day at 5pm. The perfect day at the perfect time!
I went to see her. Told her everything. And it helped.
She said that when you have one of those overwhelming moments to sit with the feeling until it passes. It's not like you are going to feel that same intensity of discomfort for long. If you sit with the feeling, it will pass just like any pain.
I have read this very thing in books about Buddhism and books about universal mind, etc., so I knew exactly where she was coming from.
Then I read a message online on how to talk to yourself when you feel bad, sad, angry, etc. about anything.
You say to yourself "Even though I feel this way about that I completely and deeply love and accept myself".
Apparently reminding yourself that you love yourself no matter what the circumstance is a good thing.
I am very thankful for what I do have and I tell my dog everyday that I am blessed he made me a mother even if I never get to be a mom to a human being, I was first made a mom by him. I just wish dogs lived as long as people!!!

Thanks again for being there.

 

[justhoping]

I guess this is where i belong as im 40 been trying for over a yr...nothing wrong so im keep getting told it will happen...
i have done something to help out and im on prometrium baby asprin and robitussin at this point and that is all my doctor wants to try at this point. I have had now three super super light first signal tests. Nothing on First response or any other brand. So here is to crossing fingers for me and everyone,

 

[PositiveUs]

I will be 40 in October. I have accepted it already and even just tell people I am 40 to try to get used to it. It's great that you have no problems like hormone levels or abnormal tests! You are lucky! If everything is good, then why not do IUI? (as long as sperm count is good).

 

[BabyBean14]

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[justhoping]

I will be 40 in October. I have accepted it already and even just tell people I am 40 to try to get used to it. It's great that you have no problems like hormone levels or abnormal tests! You are lucky! If everything is good, then why not do IUI? (as long as sperm count is good).

Oh it took me while to keep saying 40 too. I have a hormone problem but so far as they can tell nothing else. I have low progesterone which makes me have early m/c. The reason Im on the prometrium, sorry if i confused you. As for the IUI i would love too but B/f at the moment is not happy about that. We are not seeing a fertility specialist we are only seeing my ob at the moment as neither of out insurances take any fertility specialists.

 

[LeeC]

Positive, thank you for the post. i too see a counsellor and was glad to read you got in somehere when you need help the most. maybe the universe was listening to you.
I also like to read alot of books on budhism and the likes.

My dogs are 6 and 9 and I LOVE them so much

 

[PositiveUs]

Thank you for your concern. I feel better. And when (not if) I get a crying spell again, it will be ok or I will get help again.

I am scared to do another ivf and fail (thankful for the opportunity to do ivf at all).

I have a boy dog, 6 1/2, and fiance has a girl dog, 5. They are 6lbs each. We put them in bags when we go to restaurants. We hold them in our arms like little babies, so that has satisfied my urges for years. They are so small they get lost in the covers in bed. They are the best. They are my babies; and I already have a girl and a boy, so I'm set. And we can put them in a cage if need be, you can't do that with human babies.

3DPO.

 

[BabyBean14]

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[LeeC]

Good luck Kismet, I am also awaiting an appt with FS. I am having day 21 test next Friday, hoping it shows a good level, although gp said she will happily prescribe Clomid if not.

I'm not quite sure what happens at the FS either, I spoke to the hospital who didn't really give me any further insight so once my new gp has all my notes next week, I will be askingher exactly what tests are open to me and hubby.

Positive, glad you're feeling abit better. Your dogs sound so cute. I have 2 Yorkies, also a boy and a girl. I swear if they could talk I would give up on this miserable journey.

x

 

[trying4four]

Hi everyone
Just got back from our last camping expedition of the summer.
Positive, I'm so glad you were able to get to your therapist I also have three fur babies! Have you decided to try IVF again?
Welcome to all our newbies
Bonnie, did DF go for his SA yet?
I'm currently on CD8. I go for my HSG on Monday afternoon. A bit nervous about that, so I'm hoping all goes okay and it isn't too painful We got the results back from DH's SA and all is okay there. So since technically nothing is wrong with either of us, it is just a waiting game playing the odds.
to everyone!!

 

[Bonnie1990]

Hi everyone
Just got back from our last camping expedition of the summer.
Positive, I'm so glad you were able to get to your therapist I also have three fur babies! Have you decided to try IVF again?
Welcome to all our newbies
Bonnie, did DF go for his SA yet?
I'm currently on CD8. I go for my HSG on Monday afternoon. A bit nervous about that, so I'm hoping all goes okay and it isn't too painful We got the results back from DH's SA and all is okay there. So since technically nothing is wrong with either of us, it is just a waiting game playing the odds.
to everyone!!

Sa should be next week.
Good luck Monday. I was so nervous about mine but it was a breeze really. No pain at all. Im suprised they are doing it that late though. I couldn't e any later than cd 10 I think was the max

 

[trying4four]

Good luck Monday. I was so nervous about mine but it was a breeze really. No pain at all. Im suprised they are doing it that late though. I couldn't e any later than cd 10 I think was the max

CD12 is the absolute latest I've been told. I have to follow "CD11 protocol" which means no unprotected BDing during the cycle before the procedure. I don't usually O until CD17-19 so it works out okay for me, and I've been camping with three little ones, so BDing wasn't really high on our list . It was the only day I could get in this cycle, so rather than wait until late September, we decided to go for it.
Glad to hear DF is going for his SA. I think mine (although he won't admit it) was soooo happy to hear his was okay.

 

[PositiveUs]

trying4for: Thank you. Good luck with hsg. Mine was super painful because I had a supposed right tube block at the time, so either the hsg or lap opened it up. You are most fertile for next 3 months after hsg!
I am starting a new ivf cycle with estrogen priming and lupron starting CD21 which will be the 30th of the month. So just to be sure, I am going to ask for a hcg blood test before the lupron because no one told me not to try naturally and I did try and you never know.......

LeeC: If my dogs could talk I def wouldn't be going through this either or if they couldn't talk but just lived as long as us!!!!!
DOGS SHOULD LIVE AS LONG AS PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4DPO.

To be truly honest. I would not adopt; too expensive and time consuming and red tape, etc. Trying to imagine being childless and it doesn't look so bad. Do I really want to be 60 when they are 20? I think if this doesn't work, that I am making my peace with the fact that I just waited too long and I can live with that. It may hurt many times over the rest of my life not to have kids, but I will cry and then go about my life like always. Either way, it will be ok.

 

[PositiveUs]

Question to everyone:

Would you temp after ivf embryo transfer?
Or would you not even put yourself through the torture?

(last ivf I temped the whole time because I wanted to know ahead of the blood test whether it worked-plus I took many hpts all bfn- my temp went up to 99.1 for 48 hrs a few days before the blood test and it got my hopes up so high, and then temp came crashing down! I could have died)

 

[trying4four]

Question to everyone:

Would you temp after ivf embryo transfer?
Or would you not even put yourself through the torture?

No, I don't think I would. I'd probably still take a HPT early though

 

[luckylecky]

I don't usually O until CD17-19

That's where I thought I was too.. this weak I OV'd at cd11. A surprise but I will bet your bottom dollar I'll have the usual 28 day cycle, like always,,!

 

[Bonnie1990]

idk if i would temp after ivf or not...im kinda up and down with my temping...mostly only focusing on around ov and near end of cycle.

this is my first new cycle after hsg. not sure what will hppen because as per usual something always have to mess up my BD plans and missed ov day due to a stupid fight.

 

[BabyBean14]

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