Just when I think I'm starting to become me again... I get my first period, 4 weeks to the day that I started miscarrying... and of course it comes with the brutal cramps I had when I miscarried and I'm right back to where I was 4 weeks ago. To make matters worse, my entire life is surrounded by death (I work at a newspaper writing obituaries) and babies (I make and sell toys and hats). I have to drag myself to get through my work day, and I've just ignoring commissions for hats because I can't even think of making something for someone else's kid when I can't have mine... I just want to feel normal again. I'm scared I'm going to push my husband away or lose my job if I can't get it together soon.