4 weeks pregnant - not sure how to feel

[PallyD]

Hi Ladies,

I found out yesterday I'm 4 weeks pregnant. I lost my baby girl this January near 5 months of my pregnancy and now I'm pregnant again. When we found out yesterday I had mixed emotions. I was happy but same time I don't feel how I did before we had to go through our loss. I'm panicking because i've been getting cramps in my stomach and can't remember if this is normal. Sometimes my cramps are more on the right. I want to be happy and excited but deep down I'm still grieving for the loss of my daughter especially as her due date was the 20th June. I feel guilty. I've been strong and over time been coping well. I'm also scared for this pregnancy and pray it doesn't go wrong. I then worry people are going to judge me for falling pregnant so quickly but I knew I was ready. I know generally I won't be telling anyone about the pregnancy because I'm so scared it will all go wrong and I'm dreading it if I get to 19 weeks because that's when I lost Hope. Sorry I know I sound a complete mess.

 

[KatM83]

Sorry for your loss hun, Its normal to feel anxious, especially as you were further down the line with Hope, don't give yourself a hard time over it. I've detached myself quite a lot from this pregnancy, i had my 3rd m/c in Jan, I have an early scan on Weds i'm thinking it might sink in if everything goes ok but compared to how excited i was last time and now i don't even really acknowledge it, we haven't told our parents or anything. Everyone deals with things their own way, there's no right or wrong. Did they do any investigation for you? I hope this pregnancy goes well for you xx

 

[PallyD]

Sorry for your loss hun, Its normal to feel anxious, especially as you were further down the line with Hope, don't give yourself a hard time over it. I've detached myself quite a lot from this pregnancy, i had my 3rd m/c in Jan, I have an early scan on Weds i'm thinking it might sink in if everything goes ok but compared to how excited i was last time and now i don't even really acknowledge it, we haven't told our parents or anything. Everyone deals with things their own way, there's no right or wrong. Did they do any investigation for you? I hope this pregnancy goes well for you xx

Hi, Thanks for replying and I hope all goes well at your first scan They said it might be incompetent cervix as my cervix opened up and I had an infection so they couldn't do a stitch to try and save her. I've blamed myself for so long feeling like I failed her and I'm scared I'll fail this one. I'm trying to relax but that's pretty hard. Let me know how your scan goes. xx