42.3 and trying for #4

[Sunshine14]

Hey Ladies, Happy New Year to you all - may 2015 bring everything you hope and dream to each of you

Thanks so much for all your kind words about my current situation -- it's very sweet of you all and I really appreciate ur support xx I haven't had time to dwell it was my honey's bday yesterday & I can't feel too down with the promise of a New Year! I'm fine just want it all over with now! I'm back later today for more bloods & I suppose from bloods they will tell me next steps and whether whatever it is is growing or is shrinking. Fandabby, I had a TV scan, there was a gestational sac in the uterus but no yolk sac or embryo & lining is thin so there is no baby at all in womb only thing they could find is this mass of about 1cm near the right ovary! PG tests still come up straight away this morning! I have been googling and it sounds like an ovarian ectopic PG and they are quite rare as usually it happens in the tube. From what I have read it seems likely that egg was fertitlised immediatley upon release but the tube didn't 'scoop up the egg' and dropped it (!!) and so it tried to implant near ovary. It's that or some kind of cyst /tumour but I have a distinct corpus lutuem cyst and just seems weird to get PG symptoms that, like you said 2Plus, seemed so normal!! It's so weird that I didn't get a BFP until 11dpo as what was happening until then? although my PG tests were duds so maybe I would have gotten it sooner with proper tests. Anyway I'm hopeful that my HCG levels are reducing and because it is outside of tubes there is no long term damage and I don't have to have injection or anything (which would mean couldn't ttc for 3 months!!). Whole situation is very bizarre! Just want to get AF now & feel normal again xx

Mgirl I so know how you are feeling hun -- it's a stressful time waiting for the scan but the odds are good that you have a healthy PG there so just try to relax. No pressure lol but I need good news anf a hb from you next week to give me faith that it is worth ttc again!! Hope the time flies by hun xx

2Plus - fingers xd for ur BFP sticky bean ( in the right place! lol) this month hun xx

Charlie hope ur ok hun xx

Fandabby thanks for checking in on me hun - I know ur busy with the baba xx

Happy New Year ladies -- hope it's a magical one for all of you whatever it brings xxxxxxxx

 

[charlie15]

I'm am so sorry to read your news Sunshine, I was really hoping that this was it for you. But I am glad that you won't need tye methotrexate shot and that the chance of damage is small as not in the tubes, that is, I think one of the worst things of having an ectopic pregnancy.

I admire you all to keep trying, I am not sure I could after this pregnancy, we'll see I guess it depends what the outcome is and when.

Happy new year for all xxx

 

[Sunshine14]

Thanks Charlie xx how are you doing hun? How many weeks are you now? Have the doctors given you any expectation about what will happen with you? -- do they think you will go to full term sweetheart? I can't even imagine what you are going through hun but I'm sending you big virtual hugs xxxxxxxxxxxx

Afm - at the hospital every day this week for scans and bloods - it seems the ectopic is in the tube but hopefully has stopped growing -- I have no pain or bleeding still -- bloods were 819 on Tuesday & 890 on Thursday & I'm back again tomorrow and praying they will have dropped as I won't need the injection then. It's bad enough going in for a scan and finding out it's ectopic without then haviing to stop ttc for 3 months!

Hope you are all well 2plus, Mgirl & Fandabby xxx

 

[marathongirl]

Sunshine - sorry to hear that it's ectopic and in your tube. I'm glad they have found it though and you won't have any damage to your tube. I hope you don't need the shot.
Charlie- one day at a time, you are so strong. When the time comes I know you will make the decision that is right for your family.
AFM- 7 weeks yesterday and started spotting. Today full bleeding so I'm pretty sure I'm having my 3 rd mc this year. I'm sorry ladies. I feel like I've let you all down. I was really hoping this was my third time lucky. I will phone my dr to see if they still want me in for a scan on Wed. Maybe they will want me earlier? I will keep you all updated. Have a good weekend everyone.

 

[Sunshine14]

Sunshine - sorry to hear that it's ectopic and in your tube. I'm glad they have found it though and you won't have any damage to your tube. I hope you don't need the shot.
Charlie- one day at a time, you are so strong. When the time comes I know you will make the decision that is right for your family.
AFM- 7 weeks yesterday and started spotting. Today full bleeding so I'm pretty sure I'm having my 3 rd mc this year. I'm sorry ladies. I feel like I've let you all down. I was really hoping this was my third time lucky. I will phone my dr to see if they still want me in for a scan on Wed. Maybe they will want me earlier? I will keep you all updated. Have a good weekend everyone.

Oh Mgirl I am so so sorry to read that you have started bleeding, I was praying you would have good news at ur scan this week - my heart goes out to u hun xxxx there is nothing I can say to make u feel better but just know that I'm here thinking of u xx Are you still bleeding today or has it stoppped hun?? Don't feel that u have let anyone down hun -- the spirit is very willing for all of us but unfortunatley we cannot control what our bodies do!! This ttc at 'advanced maternal age' is a real roller coaster of emotions and I have to say disappointments but also I think a test of how much we actually want a rainbow baby -- I for one am not giving up yet, I just feel like after all the crap I have been through I have to get a lucky break at some point & have my rainbow to show for it ..... maybe I'm a deluded fool but I'm going to keep trying xx don't forget after mc as well we are more fertile and hopefully the body works harder to have a healthy baby -- thinking of you anyway and sending you big hugs xxx

Afm - bleeding started yesterday and sorry for tmi but I seem to have shed the lining. HCG went from 890 on Thursday to 914 so back in again tomorrow for another scan and bloods again. They are hoping the bleeding will have resulted in a big drop in hcg tomorrow & I won't need the injection - if it increases again tomorrow I will likely need the injection. Have to take it easy as pain could start and tube rupture at any time - all v stressful!!

How r u doing 2plus? Any positive news to cheer up Mgirl and I? Have you had a good strong O with the clomid yet hun? R u doing IUI again this month?

 

[marathongirl]

Sunshine- thank you for your kind words. I am not giving up either. I know in the end it will be what it will be with very little or no control on our parts. All we can do is try to live a healthy lifestyle bd lots and hope for a bit of luck.
I really hope your hcg comes down so you don't need the shot. I know that's why my doctor always orders hcg for me when pregnant to see if levels are rising appropriately. This time he only checked the once and to be honest I was relieved because its so stressful thinking about the numbers and whether they are doubling etc. Anyways enough rambling. I feel glad that my body is taking care of things naturally. I am basically having a heavy period so should be good to go right away again!

 

[charlie15]

Marathongirl I am so sorry to hear your sad news, big hugs from me. How are you feeling? Are you still going for the scan, there is always a chance that it's not a miscarriage, I really hope so.

Sunshine, again, still feel so sad for you with this ectopic, I just really hope that you don't need the methotrexate shot, so hope your HCG is going down. I admire your gusto and determination to carry on, good for you, I am sure you will get your rainbow.

How at you doing 2plus and Maxi hope we hear some good news from you guys very soon.

AFM I am showing quite clearly now at 20 weeks. In myself I feel ok to be honest, I think you adjust your expectations for the baby and just hope that she will be born alive and that we get to spend some time with her. But it's very odd with people now clocking that I am pregnant. You get all the usual questions, how far gone, boy or girl? What will the age gap be?? Kind of weird on the one hand but also nice to have some people know nothing and just be genuinely happy for me. I have my next scan on the 21st, i will be 22 weeks, I am just hoping that no other problems become apparent and that the hole in the heart has got smaller. I also want them to look at my placenta, often when babies die before birth it's actually due to placenta failiure as the placenta shares the same chromosomes as the baby so is often not very healthy. Time will tell, at the moment it's one day at a day and I am just grateful for each week that passes and Zoe's heart is still going.

 

[Sunshine14]

Mgirl hope you are ok hun xx thinking of you xx you and I can be 'oldie' fighters together & see what comes from it lol like you I'm going to take a relaxed approach to it all and see what happens -- if I get my rainbow I would be soo happy that my family is complete & if it doesn't work out c'est la vie & I will be happy with my crazy, cheeky little monkeys but I have to give it a shot ........ are you going to start trying straight away hun? U might get ur rainbow straight away - fingers & everything xd for u hun xxxxxx

Charlie you are so brave hun xx I am not sure I could be as strong as you faced with ur situation -- I'm praying everything works out for you & your family xx I have to say I'm delighted that you have people enquiring about your pregnancy and treating you like everything is ok - that is the way it should be hun. That is why I asked you a ton of questions the other day cos you are pregnant and you should try to enjoy it hun & I pray the outcome for little Zoe is the best it can be xx let us know how the scan goes and hopefully you will get some positive news on the placenta hun xx

Afm - woke up this morning & felt my PG sypmtoms had reduced - felt like 'me' again rather than cray hormonal lady! had scan & bloods taken again and PG has reduced & my bloods went from 914 to 167!! It seems my body has miscarried & the PG is reabsorbing - I have never been so happy in my life for my hcg to drop! & doc said I only have to wait for the next period & ttc again - so relieved and happy tonight

2plus, Maxxi how are you both doing?

 

[2plus1more]

Hi ladies. Marathon, very sad to hear your update after the scan. Good that nature took care soon after your appointment and you didn't have to wait for very long. Thankfully, you and Sunshine haven't needed surgery!

Sunshine, how scary to have has an ectopic. Thank goodness you were being monitored even though you didn't end up needed the shot. That must have been nerve wracking! Just thinking about it gives me chills. It's the women on this thread that keep me going. Honestly, I really admire everyone's perseverance.

Charlie, I hope your next scan goes well and the hole is getting smaller in Zoe's heart.

AFM, I'm triggering tonight and IUI is Wednesday. Life has been crazy, both kids have had the flu this past year. I'm not sure how I feel about this cycle. I have 2 follicles this time measuring 20mm and 23mm. I really think I need more follicles though. The question is, should I keep doing clomid or move on to injectables after this cycle. With clomid, I could feasibly do 4 more cycles covered by insurance, I don't get side effects, and I make multiple follicles. If I did injectables, I could only do a max of 4 cycles (per pregnancy so that's it) but I'd most likely produce more follicles.

 

[marathongirl]

Sunshine so glad you didn't need the shot! It's a weird thing but I totally get that you can be somewhat relieved after having a mc. I am also happy that my body did what it needed to do as any intervention is awful after a mc.
Charlie- so glad you are focused on enjoying your pregnancy and we are all cheering for Zoe. I do hope that your next us shows nothing else and that you do get to carry her to term and see her alive and hold her. Your strength is amazing!
2 plus1- fx'd for you. You could be the first this year with a BFP!!!!!
AFM- bleeding lasted 4 days I am currently cd8 and getting ready to O I think? Probably around day 10-11. We will try like we do every month without preventing but no temping or opk's.
The good news is that when I went in for my scan to confirm that all had passed the doctor looked at my ovaries and said I had lots of eggs left I asked if he thought there were some good ones and he said " absolutely". I felt encouraged after that. He didn't feel the need to do any tests as I am getting pregnant. His thought was that my mc's were caused by chromosomal abnormalities with the embryo. Ok I guess we just keep looking for that Golden Egg then!!!

 

[maxxiandniko]

Hi. I haven't disappeared. Just trying to catch up quickly and it sound like sunshine and marathon are not having good outcomes. If that's still the case I am so very sorry. I've had 4 miscarriages and so I feel for everybody even if that's not exactly what's happening. And Charlie my thoughts and prayers are always with you. As for me I am just waiting on my period. I got a positive opk at cd 8, then went away and as soon as I got back used opks again and keep getting positives. I don't think I've ovulated this month and so it's anyone's guess when my period will get here. If I go on a 28 day schedule it would be Wednesday but I really don't know. Merry belated Christmas and happy belated New Years. We should all have an easy and fertile year.

 

[Sunshine14]

HI Ladies how are you all doing? Hope you are all well and getting through January ok!? lol I hate January aways so grim after xmas - I always wish it to be over .....

Anyways hope you are all ok? 2plus any news on how you got on this month or is it too soon to tell hun? Fingers xd for you this month hun xx have everything xd for you -- we need some good news on this thread xx

Mgirl how are you doing? Hope ur feeling ok after mc hun? That is fab news what the doctor said to you about ur eggs, etc & you are correct getting PGG is a good sign and we all just need that one golden egg - what cd are you now hun?

Charlie how are you? Are you blooming hun? Are you waddling yet? I always love that bit were you pop out and can no longer see your feet lol xx are you all set for ur scan next week hun? Thinking of u xx

Maxxi how are you doing? Did u get af in the end? Have u started a cycle of IVF hun? Fingers xd for u and hope ur well xx

Afm - feeling much better now - feeling v appreciative of how lucky I was compared to others! I got a negative PG test yesterday and some signs of early CM coming - the doctor said to wait for a period but we are going to just dtd and see what happens. The doc said my chance of another ectopic was about 8% but I think that is for people who have had treatment of some kind not just had the PG reabsorbed by the body. I will be doing OPK's anyway to see when I get a + but to be honest I don't hold out much hope as I don't seem to O after a mc anyway.

Anyway ladies hope ur all well xx baby dust and hugs to you all xx

 

[jimaneye]

Hello! I am new here. My husband and I have been married for 17 years...will be 18 in August. We have a daughter who will be 17 in April and a son who will be 15 in May. We have been TTC for about 18 months now. I was diagnosed with PCOS when the children were very small and I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism about 6 months ago. My husband had a vasectomy shortly after our son was born so due to financial constraints we decided our best option was to use donor which we chose together and work with a FS. When we started trying my doctor said all my levels looked good and of course tried to talk me out of trying because of my ADVANCED age...and I listened and when he asked if I still wanted to try I didn't hesitate for one second. My life. My money. My body. So, anyway I was having very irregular cycles at the time and since I got a positive OPK I went in for first IUI. I went a couple of cycles without O and I opted for Clomid. First round of 50mg days 4-8 of cycle. Was a raving lunatic...ovulated nonetheless but did not work. I tried that dosage again and O'd, but no success that time. Next time Dr. doubled to 100mg days 4-8 and O'd again but with small follicles...again no success. Also after first attempt Dr. found uterine polyp and I had it removed. Now I've switched to Femara 5mg days 4-8...no homicidal urges, only horrid headache which stopped as soon as I finished off last dose. I usually O on day 15 or 16 so Monday, January 19 will be day 15. The routine is I call when I get a pos OPK and they bring me in for u/s to check my lining and follicles...if all is good then they proceed with IUI. They have never monitored my levels, and I'm not sure why. I plan on inquiring about that when I go in this time. I have been on prenatal vitamins for 2 years and folic acid for 18 months. My BMI is 21 and I read online that low dose aspirin helps thicken the lining...I only just found out that Clomid is notorious for leaving it too thin so I've been taking baby aspirin for about a month now. I also have pernicious anemia and use sublingual B-12 and my Dr. doubled my Synthroid to 50mg daily about 2 weeks ago. If I O this time and get to try again I am going to ask for a prescription for progesterone suppositories, also something I have read online and not suggested by FS. And if no success I will try again with the Femara and also ask to be started on Metformin XR, which I read about online. The FS is supposedly the best in my area and while that might be true he has been unsupportive of me and I hope other women over 40 aren't encountering this type of treatment. It is one thing to tell you the statistics and how stacked against you the odds are but to not do anything that might help you without your suggesting it is insulting. Maybe he doesn't think it is very likely but I've read a lot of stories that sound a lot like mine that have had a happy ending. So to anyone out there in the TTC over 40 boat...hang in there, keep your head up, stay positive. Wishing you all loads of baby dust.

 

[maxxiandniko]

Hello! I am new here. My husband and I have been married for 17 years...will be 18 in August. We have a daughter who will be 17 in April and a son who will be 15 in May. We have been TTC for about 18 months now. I was diagnosed with PCOS when the children were very small and I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism about 6 months ago. My husband had a vasectomy shortly after our son was born so due to financial constraints we decided our best option was to use donor which we chose together and work with a FS. When we started trying my doctor said all my levels looked good and of course tried to talk me out of trying because of my ADVANCED age...and I listened and when he asked if I still wanted to try I didn't hesitate for one second. My life. My money. My body. So, anyway I was having very irregular cycles at the time and since I got a positive OPK I went in for first IUI. I went a couple of cycles without O and I opted for Clomid. First round of 50mg days 4-8 of cycle. Was a raving lunatic...ovulated nonetheless but did not work. I tried that dosage again and O'd, but no success that time. Next time Dr. doubled to 100mg days 4-8 and O'd again but with small follicles...again no success. Also after first attempt Dr. found uterine polyp and I had it removed. Now I've switched to Femara 5mg days 4-8...no homicidal urges, only horrid headache which stopped as soon as I finished off last dose. I usually O on day 15 or 16 so Monday, January 19 will be day 15. The routine is I call when I get a pos OPK and they bring me in for u/s to check my lining and follicles...if all is good then they proceed with IUI. They have never monitored my levels, and I'm not sure why. I plan on inquiring about that when I go in this time. I have been on prenatal vitamins for 2 years and folic acid for 18 months. My BMI is 21 and I read online that low dose aspirin helps thicken the lining...I only just found out that Clomid is notorious for leaving it too thin so I've been taking baby aspirin for about a month now. I also have pernicious anemia and use sublingual B-12 and my Dr. doubled my Synthroid to 50mg daily about 2 weeks ago. If I O this time and get to try again I am going to ask for a prescription for progesterone suppositories, also something I have read online and not suggested by FS. And if no success I will try again with the Femara and also ask to be started on Metformin XR, which I read about online. The FS is supposedly the best in my area and while that might be true he has been unsupportive of me and I hope other women over 40 aren't encountering this type of treatment. It is one thing to tell you the statistics and how stacked against you the odds are but to not do anything that might help you without your suggesting it is insulting. Maybe he doesn't think it is very likely but I've read a lot of stories that sound a lot like mine that have had a happy ending. So to anyone out there in the TTC over 40 boat...hang in there, keep your head up, stay positive. Wishing you all loads of baby dust.

I read through too quickly and thought you said you were 18 years old and I was about to say get out of here ha ha. Welcome

 

[maxxiandniko]

Sunshine - glad to hear things didn't get too bad.
Hi to everyone else.
I got my period late Friday and went in for an ultrasound and bloodwork this morning. I should be starting injections tonight. I'm glad this will be over by next week. The stress is getting to me.

 

[jimaneye]

Hello Ladies. Unfortunately I did my first post rather hastily...my

apologies. I forgot to mention that I'm 42.8. Ooops. Sometimes I forget

how old I am. I still feel 16 anyhow, notwithstanding the usual aches and

pains of course.


I'm working my way through all of the past posts and hope you all are

able to keep a positive outlook while TTC. I know it is very difficult to do.

When mother nature does bother to make an appearance in my life it is

heartbreaking. There are steps to follow when another cycle comes about

and you have another chance to try yet again. First you have a good

hard cry over the last one not being THE ONE. Secondly you have a

confusing discussion with yourself, arguing the reasons why you should

do this all over again and the reasons why you shouldn't do this all over

again. All the while a tape plays over and over in the back of your mind

with all the negative, discouraging comments and advice you've been

given by family, friends, doctors, and even complete strangers on trying

to conceive over 40. Thirdly, you pick yourself up off the floor and dust

yourself off and start the emotional journey of hoping, wishing, dreaming,

fearing, and praying all over again...knowing that each second of every

moment will tick by ever so slowly...the agony of the restlessness you feel

in the seemingly endless wait...


Today was cd 15 for me...usually the day of the miraculous O, but alas

not today. This is my first cycle with Femara and I have no idea what to

expect. I had some successful cycles with Clomid but I don't like feeling

like a lunatic if I can avoid it and I've heard positive things about the

Femara so I thought it was worth a shot...for a couple of cycles anyhow.

The only side effects I noticed with it were the horrid headache and the

occasional wave of nausea. So I'll continue to use my OPK for a few more

days and hope.


I can't fully express how comforting it is to read the stories of all you

brave and tenacious ladies...thank you so much for sharing. This struggle

isn't as lonely as it was before. Here's hope and well wishes to you

all...and oodles of baby dust of course.

 

[jimaneye]

Thank you for the welcome. Sorry for the hasty post. I forgot to mention my age...

42.8 ADVANCED years as my FS so lovingly put it!

 

[maxxiandniko]

So no ivf start yet. I have to do opks and start injections with my LH surge. This is never ending!

 

[2plus1more]

Welcome Jimaneye! Hope femara works for you this cycle. You'll find this is a great bunch of women and a good place for support.

Marathon, good news about having several potential eggs. Awesome that the doctor was impressed! You've definitely got this!

Maaxi, sorry to hear your IVF is delayed. I'm on the assisted conception forums and I know it's pretty common. But when you just want to get started, it's a pain! Everything crossed for you!

Sunshine, how are you? Do you think you ovulated this cycle? Know you weren't sure since your recent m/c.

Fandabby and Charlie, hope you are doing well. I read an article last night about a woman whose child was diagnosed with trisomy 18. She arranged to have professional pics done at the hospital. Just a thought, but I really love having the idea of baby pics.

AFM, I'm just waiting to see what's what. I have a beta scheduled in 2 days. Can't make any guesses because I'm on progesterone. Side effects like you wouldn't believe!

 

[Sunshine14]

Hi Ladies hope you are all well xx

Charlie did you have your scan today? Hope it went well hun xx thinking of you xx sending you big hugs and I hope it was good news xx

Maxxi keep the faith and stay patient hun not long to go now - sounds like you have a good strong plan and you will be starting the injections and going for it and I have everything xd it will result in your little bundle of joy xx just stay calm sweetie and think positive thughts and loads of tlc for yourself!

2plus how did it go hun? Did you get bloods done yet? Fingers xd hun I'm hoping and*praying you have good news xx

Mgirl how are you sweetie? Hope ur feeling ok after mc? ARe you feeling ok about it all hun? What cd are you now?

Jim welcome to the thread - we have all been through a lot on here waiting and hoping for our sticky beans but we keep each other positive and its a fab bunch of ladies x

Afm - been doing opk's since ectopic and they went negative last week and then been getting some colour since saturday - almost positive earlier today and I think they will be + tonight or tomorrow. We have been ntnp so will see what happens - at least I know I will likely get af in about 2 weeks from now and will be back on track. A bfp would be fab but also very scary as would be scared of another ectopic!

Anyway ladies hope ur all ok xxx