I couldn't do it. Today's test day, AF hasn't made an appearance yet, and...I couldn't test. I woke up, and...freaked myself out. It's like the opposite of most everyone on here, but I did the early testing at DPO10, got a negative and now I'm scared to see another one. I'm thinking...hey, if I don't test, I can either be heartbroken when AF shows up, or in a week I'll just know that she isn't??
That's horrible isn't it??
It just seems like if I test and get a BFN and then AF shows up, I'm sad twice. But if I just wait for AF, I'm only sad onceAnd if I just keep waiting, if it is a BFP...then I know when I finally do test, likely what the results are...
And now I'm convincing myself I never actually o'd, despite the positive OPK, temperature spike and crosshairs on my FF app...
Someone will me to test tomorrow. This is silly![]()
OMG you are talking to my heart. I got a BFN ... testing uber early .. then a light light light only with tweaking photo and squinting you see a line ... then two days after that still a squinter... so could it be the brand is crap and shows squinters or is it a chemical?
Today I am 12dpo - FF says 13dpo... I feel cramps (don't really get them unless I am bleeding) nausea, breasts are killing me and I don't have any more tests and I am NOT getting another test. Since I live in the middle of nowhere ... I am happy to say that I will hold out till my BETA on Thursday ... THOUGH having said that -- OPKs will come up IF you are pregnant too... so I might just POAS on a stick.
I am feeling you - I know I could go and buy a test - (even though in the sticks of ND - Ill pay $30 for one

I won't - not because of the $30 ... but because I don't want to see BFN on a FRER that would mean the faint BFPS on the IC tests was false.
Uh I am with you!!