6 months + since mc and no luck getting pregnant... Come join me in the wait!!

[amanda111308]

Hi Ladies - I briefly read through the posts, thanks for the invite @Amanda!!! For those that don't know, I have had two chemicals and one recent ectopic. It's been a struggle.

@Amanda I got some GREAT news today. I went in for my day for bloodwork after the methotrexate on Sunday, my levels came down from 98 to 31!!!!! They expect by Sunday I will go down almost entirely and then hopefully have my period. I can't TTC for 3 months (ugh!) but I will definitely be posting on here to keep myself occupied . I have a follow up with our RE next Thursday to talk about our next plan of action. In other news, my husband and I just booked a nice little weekend getaway to Chicago on Easter weekend. I am really looking forward to 4 days of shopping, eating and rejuvenating.

Nice to meet all the ladies on this thread!! Smiler, nice to see you on here too!!

Hi Natalie!! I am so glad that you have come to join us!! And I am thrilled your levels are going down soo quickly!!

 

[amanda111308]

Hi Amanda have you resisted the urge to test yet?

Yep I am still winning the battle!!

 

[amanda111308]

AFM: I woke up this morning with a dull headache and my temps are ever creeping upward when at this point last cycle I had a temp crash... But I also ovulated a lot sooner this cycle so I have no idea... Lol grasping at straws and trying to be hopeful and for me hope is a symptom of AF HAHAHA!! Oh geez...

 

[Carybear]

Hi Ladies! May I join you all? I had a mc November 12, 2012. Still waiting for a BFP. It's now been six months and I am wondering why the statement "You're more fertile after a mc" didn't work for me. Anywho... I'm on CD 12 today and usually ov around cd19-20.

 

[Smiler79]

Hi carybear. You are very welcome here even if not in nice circumstances.

Afm I swear I am imagining loaded of symptoms but would be a miracle if I got a bfp this month. Got lots of Ewcm which is unusual for me at this time in cycle and still getting twinges in breasts but who knows. Roll on Tuesday xxx

 

[Nataliek]

@Mrskitty thank you for the warm welcome, I am really looking forward to our getaway. It's our 5 year anniversary so all the more special. I bet you the first two months of the wait to TTC will go fast and the last month will drag!

@Amanda, oh that all sounds great!!!! I hope hope hope this is it for you.

@Smiler I am sorry you are still struggling a bit. I know how frustrating this whole process is. I am convinced its just a matter of time for you. I know that isn't overly comforting but hope you're hanging in.

@Carybear, I hope this month is your month!! I had a miscarriage back in October 2013 and we didn't get pregnant again until February of this year. So 4 months and we tried right away in November. I had a chemical and lost right at 4 weeks so my cycle went back on track the very next month. Hang in there, I know its not easy.

 

[MrsKitty]

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[amanda111308]

Anniebobs: what was/is your cm like?

 

[Anniebobs]

Anniebobs: what was/is your cm like?

It's normally dry after o then goes creamy before AF, this time it was creamy from about 3-8dpo then dry. So I think basically if it's different for you it might be a symptom!

 

[amanda111308]

Anniebobs: what was/is your cm like?

It's normally dry after o then goes creamy before AF, this time it was creamy from about 3-8dpo then dry. So I think basically if it's different for you it might be a symptom!

I normally dry up right after O but this cycle I haven't lost it yet... Although today it looks kind of like my pre AF stuff... I have had headaches a lot... Had a break from the headache yesterday but today it's back and right under my eyes I feel like I could sleep forever... But I think this is mostly due to being my 12th day in a row working... Thank God I have the weekend off!!

 

[amanda111308]

Well 12dpo for me today and had a temp spike... From 97.71 to 98.17... Wth? I MIGHT test tomorrow... I dunno I haven't decided... Ugh I am not ready to see a bfn... :'(

 

[Smiler79]

Oh Hun. Fingers crossed for you. My af is due Tuesday. I have sore boobs again today and still feeling slightly queasy and very tired. Sure it is all in my head as would be amazed if we got lucky this month . I have got one test left so don't want to waste it so going to try and hold out til wed to test if no af Tuesday. This waiting is driving me crazy.

Can I just ask about temping as thinking of giving it a go next month if not pregnant this cycle. Do I need a special thermometer and when should I take temp ?

 

[amanda111308]

I got my bbt from early-pregnancy-tests.com it's was super cheap and very fast shipping

Yes this wait is terrible but despite all of the great "symptoms" I am still not allowing myself to get excited at all. I just can't. Every other cycle I get my hopes up with every burp or fart and only to be hit with a freight train of emotions when I get a bfn quickly followed by bitchy AF she is never welcome and shows up anyways lol

I am trying to be positive but I feel like I already know the outcome, I guess I am getting it out now so that the minute AF shows up I can embrace the new cycle and give it all I've got again. Thing is I vowed to my husband that if I didn't get pregnant this cycle that I would be going to the doctor to discuss our options and I really didn't want it to come to that.

Well AF is due on Tuesday for me as well. And unfortunately only time will tell.

 

[amanda111308]

Watching my sister's ucbaby on live broadcast right now... I feel like such a failure as a woman... Why can't I get pregnant again!! Agh! I hate this feeling so much!!

 

[Smiler79]

Oh Hun not sure what you are watching but I know exactly how you are feeling as I feel exactly the same .

Fingers crossed for us both this week x x x x x

 

[amanda111308]

Oh Hun not sure what you are watching but I know exactly how you are feeling as I feel exactly the same .

Fingers crossed for us both this week x x x x x

It's a live 4d ultrasound in Canada.

So jealous I could scream. I caved and tested this morning and bfn...f***ing figures... Why would I expect anything different...

I am normally so positive but lately I am down in the dumps... The fact that I have a perfect little boy is not even helping I think I need to get my head checked...

 

[MrsKitty]

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[amanda111308]

Yeah I know what you mean about feeling a failure and I guess I would feel this even if I already had children. I am sure it does not get easier. You are blessed though ladies and remember you can do it, you have done it before. It is just so hard, the waiting is torture.

Thank you MrsKitty, I am blessed and earlier today I was taking for granted the fact that I have nothing to complain about. I have the most lovely little boy ever who is gentle and loving especially towards his momma. I just rocked him to sleep and felt as though God's grace had fallen upon me. I was shaken with lovely memories of him as a newborn right up to now and I cried (silently) as I watched him drift off to sleep. I could have stayed by his bedside all night but I am prone to sneezing and thought I would disturb him for sure if I had hung around long enough.

I am sorry for being such a whiny downer ladies. I need to be stronger and focus on being a good mother for the living breathing little blessing I have now. Thank you for helping me realize this once again

 

[Anniebobs]

Sorry for the bfn Amanda. Ttc does make it seem like that's the only thing in the world going on and your whole life revolves around the what ifs, it makes it hard to appreciate what you've got in your life. I have done in many times, don't be too hard on yourself for being down, we all have those days (especially in the tww it seems, or when AF shows) Have faith that you will get your rainbow, it just might take a bit more rain first

 

[MrsKitty]

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