I've only told my closest friend that I am pregnant. I thought it would be easier for me if I could enjoy this for a little while before telling the world, or deciding if I want to go through with it or not. I have tried to keep a calm, logical perspective on things and I can't help but feel incredibly sad over my situation. The only family I have in this world is my aunt, whom I live with, and we don't get along. My mother died last April. She was the greatest friend I have ever known. I am just so sad that I don't have her support. I know my aunt will be very disappointed in me, and feel that I am just adding to the burden I've become to her. And she will remind me of it every day of our life together. My boyfriend doesn't know yet. Prior to finding out I was pregnant, I was thinking maybe it was time to move on. I don't know what to do and I don't know how he will react. As future parents, we don't have the foundation to build a family. I work so hard but am still so poor. I can't envision myself buying a crib or cheerfully taking baby to the doctor. It is hard to envision the love and joy of bringing a new human to the world when the financial burden and guilt I feel make me think I would be a horrible parent. The only thing that is keeping me hopeful is that I wish my mom had had me 10 years sooner, when she was my age, so that I could have enjoyed another 10 years with my best friend. And if I ever have a child of my own, I want to spend as much time with it as possible, too. I am so conflicted and sad. I have been crying all day. I just miss my mom and wish she were here with me.