Ok so OH already has a little girl who I love dearly, she is adorable and very sweet, if not a little demon sometimes (but arnt all kids) she lives with her mother and we see her one weekend a month and as much as we can on school holidays but she lives a long way from us and her mum wasnt to keen on her being so far away for long periods, so we've only had her for the longest 2 weeks straight down here so far. We had a chat a while ago about her coming to see me the day baby was born and I wasn't to keen tbh coz it would have ment my OH leaving me and bubs to go get her, and I just wanted to bond with hubby and baby, as this is my first. Anyway we resolved that by his brother bringing her down so that she gets to be a part of it too, which i want coz she's part of my family too. Im not keen though on the idea of having two men to look after a newborn and a 5 year old when I come home from the hospital. Anyway I decided I'll find someway to cope for a few days and then settle and learn how to be mummy properly afters. But today OH has gone and and agreed with her mum to have her for a whole month just after baby. I dont know how to feel. Most people that have two kids already know what there doing, they did it with there first! I tried to talk to OH who just made me feel awfl my shouting at me and telling me that she's part of the family too. I just feel awful and I dont know what to do. Im already scared and unsure of how I'll cope with a newborn let alone me baby a 5 year old and a puppy while he's at work??? Btw I'm only 20! I just thought everything would be calm until I was ready for it all. I dont even know if that makes any sence .... sorry I just needed to get it off my chest.