An upsetting day..

[cooch]

Found out today a colleague is pregnant. She's pretty young and it is a complete accident. I feel really bad for her in one sense (I'm not a total witch) as she is now in quite a difficult position. I do like her.

I posted on a thread the other day that thanks to medication I have been taking I haven't cried about my situation in at least 8 weeks and I was in such a good place. I am now feeling awful and have had to hold tears in a couple of times today. I am now thinking I don't see light at the end of the tunnel, whereas I have been so up beat recently.

The girl will, when she gets a couple of things sorted out be happy about the situation. I don't envy what she has to sort out, however I would so gladly be in her pregnant position.

 

[Sophe]

Its always hard when it seems to come so easily for some and you try as hard as you possibly can but you are totally powerless over your own circumstances, Life isn'tfair we all know that, but LTTC really proves that fact and reminds you of it.

It hurts me too when people at work get Preg, because I feel so stuck, I see then go off on Mat leave and even come back and there I am still desperatley wanting the chance, this would hurt anyone in whatever situation to be the one who is left out and for no reason can not get /have what you want... its totally normal.

You have to try and remember that this girl being pregnant does not change anything for you, and you were feeling upbeat before this and you can and will get back to that stage, just need some time to get over the reminder thats been shoved in your face..

take care and baby dust... xx

 

[cooch]

Thank you Sophe. I'm hoping to snap out of it soon, i.e. before bed time. LOl xx

 

[Sophe]

how long have you been ttc?

 

[Fuchsia1412]

Sorry this has upset you so much, and good on you for being a friend to her even though you find it hard. I know everyone deals with things differently, reacts differently, and that you are probably a bit sick of hearing this- but the main thing that seems to get people down in the dumps is making a connection between other people's pregnancies and their own probs conceiving, but I believe that kind of thinking can be altered, with some effort...it's just a surefire way to feel depressed because we all know the reality..which is that most people don't have problems conceiving, and most do it, so there's always gonna be alot of them around...! You have as much chance as you ever did, and your journey isn't altered by this girl's news..what's more, you wouldn't want her journey, you want your own, and I really,really hope you do get your own successes (sorry havn't read other posts so don't know exacts and ins-and-outs...) Hope you can find something to cheer you up a little this eve.

 

[cooch]

Awe thanks Fuchsia. Your right about the connection between other ppl. I kind of see it as a reward that I'm not getting even though I have done everything right. I did help the girl out with doc details, even though I was upset inside. I can see she has it tough just now.

Its now TTC 13 months. But so far according to NHS we are at the moment 'unexplained'. According to my private FS I have a hormonal imbalance. The private FS has put me on meds which have improved a number of things including my mood, lol.

 

[Nissie]

Hi Hun, trust me I know how you feel I am 29 and ttc for about 7 years now. My sister just had her baby 3 days ago and she wanted me in the room with her, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I feel so bad because it sounds so selfish of me, but this has been a long struggle for me. Just thinking about it makes me cry. I wish you so much luck on your journey and hopefully get to read someday that your struggles in ttc have paid off. Good luck to you hun!

 

[jeoestreich]