superp123
Super Auntie to 3 + 1
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Found out yesterday that I've mc again, making it 3for3!! I just can't stand it, and to be honest this has become something that I'm not surprised by anymore. Not to say that I don't feel things, because I do... damn it I was invested! I've been pumping myself with hormones that have made me as big as a house... To have a LO to bring home, I'd do it again... but today I'm just a fat a$$ who's having another D&C!!
I know I'm not the 'judge' but I consider myself a good person but I feel as though I've been persecuted. I just find the whole thing a big F-ing joke! Today I feel like, how many times will I do this to myself? Seriously, how many times can I beat my head against this wall before I finally call it quits???
And tell me why on earth anyone should have to go through all of this 3x's OR MORE before a doc will look at things thoroughly? Seems to me that there's a lot of needless suffering going on here!! That is definitely not "health care"!! It's "keep 'em coming in care"! I feel like a meal ticket, a number, and a statistic!@#@!!! "Roll 'em in boys, she needs another procedure!" Sorry for the dark sarcasm but just I'm soooooo tired of it all.
And the icing on the ... it's a beautiful day out there and I cannot even begin to enjoy it!!! The universe is pointing and laughing at me and I don't think it's funny.
About the only thing I'm looking forward to is the Vicodin induced comma I'll be enjoying this time tomorrow. *humph*
Disclaimer: none of this was meant to offend anyone, I'm just MAD!
P