Mississippi03
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Im having a crappy day and need to bitch. You should leave now if you dont want to hear it. Otherwise, feel free to join me.. Your vent is ok here!
Ive been at this for 8 months now. EIGHT months. I get the fact that there are people who have been at this a hell of a lot longer then me, and I feel shitty for them to. But I was naive. I thought this would be easy. I thought I would go off bcp, get bfp my first month and be nearing my last four weeks of pregnancy by now. Ohhh how wrong was I??? I think the universe is laughing at me.
Ive been though the antsy two week wait just to get a bfn every month. Followed by the two days of depression and eating my feelings.
Ive been through the its ok, on to the next cycle phase.
Ive been through the angry... I dont want to hear about every single female who accidentally ended up pregnant on my facebook page.. Or my sil who went off bcp to lose weight for her wedding and ended up pregnant instead. I dont want to hear the 'It will happen when its right ' .. 'You haven't been trying that long ' .. Or 'you need to stop stressing ' ... ESPECIALLY from the people who got pregnant first try or by mistake.
Ive gotten to the fuck it stage. Ive tossed everything that was supposed to help me out the window and am just annoyed. Why bother? Theres no point in loading up on vitamins that haven't done anything for me anyway.
And then theres my husband. I don't know why we short formed them to dh (dear husband)? We should rename them to mah ( misunderstnding asshole husband). Well i guess not those lucky females who did luck out with dear husbands. But come on. My husband thinks he walks on water. He thinks every time we dtd that hes done me a favour... And don't bother telling him you are upset about your bfn because he will just call you crazy when you let it ruin your day. He spends ten minutes icing his balls to try and make his sperm swim quicker before his sa next week.. Lol and I'm supposed to give him a hero cookie for actively participating in this journey? I wish I had a husband that did research, changed his diet, quit drinking, took a mitt full of vitamins.. Anything to help ttc like us females do. They just dont get it.. At all.
Today, I am annoyed. I hate ttc. It isn't fun. And I feel bad for the next person that tells me to relax about it because they just might have to hear this whole spiel too.
End rant.
Ive been at this for 8 months now. EIGHT months. I get the fact that there are people who have been at this a hell of a lot longer then me, and I feel shitty for them to. But I was naive. I thought this would be easy. I thought I would go off bcp, get bfp my first month and be nearing my last four weeks of pregnancy by now. Ohhh how wrong was I??? I think the universe is laughing at me.
Ive been though the antsy two week wait just to get a bfn every month. Followed by the two days of depression and eating my feelings.
Ive been through the its ok, on to the next cycle phase.
Ive been through the angry... I dont want to hear about every single female who accidentally ended up pregnant on my facebook page.. Or my sil who went off bcp to lose weight for her wedding and ended up pregnant instead. I dont want to hear the 'It will happen when its right ' .. 'You haven't been trying that long ' .. Or 'you need to stop stressing ' ... ESPECIALLY from the people who got pregnant first try or by mistake.
Ive gotten to the fuck it stage. Ive tossed everything that was supposed to help me out the window and am just annoyed. Why bother? Theres no point in loading up on vitamins that haven't done anything for me anyway.
And then theres my husband. I don't know why we short formed them to dh (dear husband)? We should rename them to mah ( misunderstnding asshole husband). Well i guess not those lucky females who did luck out with dear husbands. But come on. My husband thinks he walks on water. He thinks every time we dtd that hes done me a favour... And don't bother telling him you are upset about your bfn because he will just call you crazy when you let it ruin your day. He spends ten minutes icing his balls to try and make his sperm swim quicker before his sa next week.. Lol and I'm supposed to give him a hero cookie for actively participating in this journey? I wish I had a husband that did research, changed his diet, quit drinking, took a mitt full of vitamins.. Anything to help ttc like us females do. They just dont get it.. At all.
Today, I am annoyed. I hate ttc. It isn't fun. And I feel bad for the next person that tells me to relax about it because they just might have to hear this whole spiel too.
End rant.