MrsBurton09
Pregnant w/ bby #2
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Seriouly long and I am sorry so if you decide to read it may not make sense bc I am rly upset...sorry
I am seriously annoyed with everyone. Let me just start with my family..they only call when they are needing me to do something which is rly hurtful bc if I were to ask them to do something I would be put on the back burner bc I am not nearly as important as everyone else. Everytime I always feel guilty if I tell them no when they ask for something so I always do it. Sometimes I will act as if its a trouble then they yell at me saying whatever Ill do it myself to make me feel even worse.
Then anything I post on facebook my dad calls me out in public instead of messaging me or calling me. He says things like I shouldn't complain or I should watch what I say bc I am the only Bible some ppl will ever know and complaining isn't helping spread the love of God and I should use wisdom in what I post. What is the point in me having a facebook if I cant express how I feel or whats on my mind?!? Thought that was the whole point of facebook?!? I guess I was wrong. When I saw what he wrote this morning I sat in bed and cried for like 20 min. nonstop. It truely hurts my feelings if he has an issue with something I say on facebook he needs to just call or send me a private message.
On to another rant and I am sorry for the self pitty party but I rly have to get it out of my system.
I had what I thought were two friends. Well the first friend only cares about herself. We were really close when we were both ttc but when I got pregnant she kept making up stories that she was pregnant too but kept it a secret from me. Turns out she wasn't pregnant and quit talking to me..well I tried several times and the only thing she would talk about is how much money they have now and how they are going to vacation two or three times before summer was over. And so on and I am not the type of person that will be ur friend or not your friend bc of how much money you have or dont have.
The second friend has no time for me but she sure finds enough time to spend with this older guy smoke pot and drink and party every weekend. Use to I was her only friend and I was there for her during the time she found out this idiot got her pregnant and she didn't want it but then the same day she started to bleed I was there for her through it all. I ask her to do things with me all the time and she says she cant bc of this guy or bc her car is broke down. But yet she goes back to say that this guy uses her car..how is he using her car if its broke down???? I am just done with everyone.
Everyone seems to have their own things going on and I will just let it go bc there is no sense in holding on to useless friendships. I am not a one way street. If you need me I will be there but if I need you you need to be there too its only fair in a friendship.
I am seriously annoyed with everyone. Let me just start with my family..they only call when they are needing me to do something which is rly hurtful bc if I were to ask them to do something I would be put on the back burner bc I am not nearly as important as everyone else. Everytime I always feel guilty if I tell them no when they ask for something so I always do it. Sometimes I will act as if its a trouble then they yell at me saying whatever Ill do it myself to make me feel even worse.
Then anything I post on facebook my dad calls me out in public instead of messaging me or calling me. He says things like I shouldn't complain or I should watch what I say bc I am the only Bible some ppl will ever know and complaining isn't helping spread the love of God and I should use wisdom in what I post. What is the point in me having a facebook if I cant express how I feel or whats on my mind?!? Thought that was the whole point of facebook?!? I guess I was wrong. When I saw what he wrote this morning I sat in bed and cried for like 20 min. nonstop. It truely hurts my feelings if he has an issue with something I say on facebook he needs to just call or send me a private message.
On to another rant and I am sorry for the self pitty party but I rly have to get it out of my system.
I had what I thought were two friends. Well the first friend only cares about herself. We were really close when we were both ttc but when I got pregnant she kept making up stories that she was pregnant too but kept it a secret from me. Turns out she wasn't pregnant and quit talking to me..well I tried several times and the only thing she would talk about is how much money they have now and how they are going to vacation two or three times before summer was over. And so on and I am not the type of person that will be ur friend or not your friend bc of how much money you have or dont have.
The second friend has no time for me but she sure finds enough time to spend with this older guy smoke pot and drink and party every weekend. Use to I was her only friend and I was there for her during the time she found out this idiot got her pregnant and she didn't want it but then the same day she started to bleed I was there for her through it all. I ask her to do things with me all the time and she says she cant bc of this guy or bc her car is broke down. But yet she goes back to say that this guy uses her car..how is he using her car if its broke down???? I am just done with everyone.
Everyone seems to have their own things going on and I will just let it go bc there is no sense in holding on to useless friendships. I am not a one way street. If you need me I will be there but if I need you you need to be there too its only fair in a friendship.
as for the girl you was ttc with she sounds like she's just jealous of you.. neither of these girls are your friends to be honest.
I feel the same way sometimes and feeling alone sucks. So don't ever think you are again
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I rly hope I find a mommy group of some sort I rly rly need to find a few close ppl to be in my life..specially during this time bc I dont think I can do it alone when DH is at work. 
its hard being alone i know 
