Thank you so much. It makes me feel better to not be alone. I know anxiety is common ... I think I just feel shame that I suffer from it.
Thank you for the good ideas. I've been seeing a councellor ( although I should try to see her more). The expense is hard.. but I also write in a journal and I try and walk etc. I have a Pinterest board too with all my cool house ideas as well, and I know it's just a matter of time before I can see everything come together. My husband has built lots of houses and he knows what he's doing. I do have faith in that. He's so calm and relaxed.. I hope so bad our baby gets his personality.
The hardest part has been being faced with moving while pregnant.. like you I haven't been Able to nest yet and probably won't the way I wanted too... and it's a terrible feeling. All our things are hand me downs too .. and I won't have a baby's room until baby is 4-6 months because we are building bedrooms in the house. It's been such a crazy time. We got married last June as well so the last year has been super fast and wild. All good things but I would like time to slow down.
We bought a house with a suite on it so our plan is to live in that part and start renovating the part we plan on living in the spring..Then renting out the suite. That way we don't have to live in renos.. but it's still so hard to envision. I love where we are and I don't want to leave.
especially to a place that isn't as nice. Although of course we won't be paying some one else mortgage we will be paying our own.. and Of course I know the goal is to fix it., which you can do a great deal with paint, new doors, new windows, floors, refacing cupboards, blinds, and decorating.. but the amount of work right when I'm pregnant doesn't excite me at at all. Baby will be born in March so I'll be able to help with some things but not all.
All I can do at this point is go with the flow .. I've been resisting it so badly and it's been terrible for the anxiety. I usually feel good in the morning and I have anxiety in the afternoon.. at night it usually gets better too. So I don't know what that would classify me as. I like to think it's a moderate level..and not severe although it can be. I read an article that said up to 15 percent of women have anxiety while pregnant.. I just happen to be one of them, well I suppose us three are part of that 15 percent..
I'm also type A and that will be hard for sure but I'm hoping I can adapt too. I like things to look perfect and I know that can't always be realistic. I'm getting better but I have a lot of work to do with that.
Your labour and delivery were ok? Your baby is healthy? I would assume to that this baby might have anxiety as well.. but like me I've mostly learned to cope ok and I've had a really good life despite it. I just very much hope that my husbands genetics take on a large role to cancel some of mine out lol. We have a strange family. Lots have anxiety.. some are quirky.. my brother especially...I just hope this baby is healthy and happy and neuro typical and calm or at least can be taught coping strategies to stay calm.