So tomorrow is my first appointment with the high risk doctors. Sounds strange but I found out I was going to be seeing them about 4 weeks ago due to my gestational sac being slightly atypical (a little elongated). I have been counting down the days until this appointment to know if my little bear is okay or if something may go wrong. My husband and I have already spoken about the possibility of discovering the baby may have downs syndrome or another disability and we both think a baby no matter what will be a blessing. But I am nervous that they may tell me other things like it may not make it to us this April. I have not even been able to really leave my house all weekend because I keep crying randomly, I think it is because I am just nervous. My last ultra sound we were at 10 weeks, but so much can happen within a two week span. I keep reliving in my mind the day we found out our last pregnancy ended. There were no signs that it had stopped growing and had left us prior to the Ultra sound tech not being able to find its little heartbeat. That was at 9 weeks but the baby had stopped growing at 8 weeks. We had to have a D&C and discovered that we miscarried due to a chromosomal abnormality, tripoldy. I so want, like all of you in this forum, to have a healthy baby at the end of our pregnancies. I am terrified that I may not have that happy ending and that tomorrow all my dreams I have had for the past 12 weeks will be shattered. I know this is a depressing post, but I really needed to talk to someone. I have not told my friends and my husband really gets upset when I share these feelings of insecurity with him. I really just needed to talk to someone who is in my shoes (being pregnant) and may be able to relate to me. Thanks for your time...by this time tomorrow I'll know what is going on. Hopefully "knock on wood" everything is fine...but who knows. I mean most of my symptoms have gone away minus some cramping, im tired easily, and sore boobs. I am just scared. 
