Anyone want to join me in a few minutes of hating the world?

[Lilaala]

I hear it's good to let it out.


AF is on her way, I can tell, she'll be here tomorrow or the day after. My temp only ever drops last minute, I ALWAYS tell myself not to get my hopes up, and I always do anyways, and they are always crushed.

I'm mad at myself for hoping and thereby opening myself up to the disappointment, I'm mad at all our test results being good because I want to find the cause so we can effing FIX IT, I'm mad at having to work with my "Ooops I had unprotected sex once and hope I'm not pregnant, oh wait, I am, let's throw a party and yammer about my morning sickness ever damned day for attention" Co-Worker.

I'm mad that doing everything right and having nothing to show for it, and I'm mad at society for implying you can't so much as look at a penis without becoming pregnant, and never mentioning that it's actually pretty effing common to have trouble getting pregnant once you do want to.


Pardon me for a moment here while I just scream 'fuckitall' and break something.





That feels a tiny bit better. Anyone else need a go?

 

[MrsJA]

Yep, I hate the world Lilaaa!

I just failed my first IVF cycle. The world sucks!!!

I hate that I got my hopes up, even though I know I wasn't supposed to.

I hate that the cycle failed even though I did EVERYTHING I was supposed to. I did the acupuncture, I ate the brazil nuts, I drank the stupid grapefruit juice. The list goes on....

I also hate that almost every couple we know has produced a baby in the time we've been trying, and some of them are now onto number two.

It just flat out sucks

PS - thanks for the thread, I needed that today!

 

[Sazaroo]

Meeee toooooo, can i join!

I hate that 3 of my friends are 'oopsie' pregnant on 2nd children (im pleased for them really but u get what i mean), I hate the fact that I have to take Clomid and norethisterone again with its evil side effects.
I hate that no one understands the hell im in (expect you guys), I hate that I cant get on with my life and its been taken over with waiting.... waiting to Ov, waiting for af, waiting to take a test etc etc and I HATE BEING TOLD TO 'RELAX', IT'LL HAPPEN WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT!!

Phew... feel better now x

 

[DragonMummy]

I hate everything all the time.

I hate that we have so much to deal with right now - ltttc, moving house and a tragedy. All too much.

I hate people at work who ask me why I am not pregnant (well would you like my consultant's phone number, the hospital form after my mc and a printout of my ovarian scans?)

I hate all the oopsie babies at work.

I hate people griping about how rough they feel in first tri

I hate that people seem to time it to when i am feeling rough and emotional to announce their pregnancy.

I hate that this is taking so bloody long when all i have wanted my whole life is to have loads of babies

I hate that ltttc makes me look so ungrateful for having a child when i know what a gift he is. But I want him to have loads of brothers and sisters!

I hate how upset this all makes me.

I hate that I got so close and had it snatched away.

 

[MrsJA]

Dragonmummy

 

[MrsJA]

Sazaroo, I hate that one too.

I JUST RELAXED AND LOOK.... IT DIDN'T HAPPEN!!!

ha ha...

 

[HippyChicki]

I so agree, I had my little rant yesterday.

I counted 29 babies being born in the 2 years we've been ttc, and they are all people i know or family members etc, i've had enough of being told "relax and let nature take its course" or my mums favourite "it'll happen when its your time" FECK OFF why cant it be my time now? I've done my waiting unlike some people who as you've all said have had oopsie babies or honeymoon babies like my sister-in-law. i have 3 cousins who also have had their babies and are on number 2. My DH's ex-boss got pg with #2 within 6 weeks of having the first (yes they will be in the same school year!)

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JUST FRIGG OFF WORLD!!!!!!!!!

Thats a bit better. lol

 

[foxyloxy28]

I hate the fact that my seriously inconsiderate manager likes to bang on about her daughter's terrible (unplanned) pregnancy experience (her daughter works here part time) and do I really think I want to put myself through that. Her daughter has a lovely little boy to show for the fainting and bit of MS - sometimes I feel like telling her to read some of the awful things some people have to go through in pregnancy! I'd certainly put up with some MS and a couple of fainting spells, if it resulted in a

Oh, and even better, when I had to tell her I was going to the GP for some initial tests (internal) and being referred to a FS, she said are you sure you actually want a baby, you know what you're like, you get an idea in your head and then you change your mind a few months down the line!!!!

No, I just want to put myself through months, and months (and a few more months) of trying just to get fed up with that idea and move on to something else!

When I told her that my GP thought I most likely had a very early miscarriage (prob about 5 weeks) back in September, she said that she doesn't count that as a pregnancy, it's just a period! I swear, I could've slapped her

And breathe.....

 

[zowiey]

Can I join in?!

I hate that every month I cling onto the hope I may be pregnant, even though I know full well I'm not. It seems like I don't have enough heartache as it is, so, I know, I'll convince myself that surely it has to happen soon. 2 years of thinking like this, why can't I stop?!

I HATE my mil, who knows we are having trouble, but decides to ask at our newphews christening when will we have a baby?!! I honestly didn't know whether to cry or punch her!

Also I really hate that I can't fecking have a baby as easily as everyone else! And then you see comments on the articles about ivf in the daily mail, and the knob head readers are saying that infertile people should accept it's just natural selection, we obviously aren't meant to have children! How's about fuck off!

Phew! Feel a bit better now!

Hugs to all you ladies, this is all a shitty shitty situation that none of us deserve. Xxxxxx

 

[Koromaru]

I hate that everyone at work and in my family are getting pregnant as easily as it is to catch a cold.

I hate that I had to spent gazillion of the dollars in OPK, HPT, CBFM and all that.

I hate that I'm feeling depressed everytime I get AF or someone get pregnant.

I hate that having sex is not fun anymore.

Goddammit! I wanna be pregnant!

sigh, thanks it helped

 

[Flake-y]

Great thread!

I hate people telling you that "it could be worse, remember you still have your health/husband/parents etc..."!!! Would they say to someone that had lost a leg "oh, it could be worse, you could have lost the other leg too!"!!!!!!!!

I hate my so-called friend 'accidentally' getting pregnant when not living with/not married to/not committed at all to boyfriend! Well, he's committed now! The words 'trapped' spring to mind...

I hate the same so-called friend sending me a photo message of her first baby scan 2 weeks after I told her we were having IVF; insensitive cow!

I hate people saying "oh I'm sure IVF will work for you first time!" But it's more likely not to!!!

Right, rant over, and I feel better!!!

 

[Mariella123]

Ha ha! Thank you ladies this thread has just really cheered me up...

I hate the 'oh its so hard being pregnant in summer'

I hate the stupid girl at work who is 'so gutted' to be having a boy when she wanted a girl!

I hate the 'you're so lucky you dont get periods' NO I'M NOT I WANT TO OVULATE!!

at least we know that when we are pregnant we will never be that insensitive and will appreciate everything that goes with it (shut up about your morning sickness...it will be worth it!!!)

 

[Lilaala]

I'm sitting here with a couple of tears, trying to put together the words, and I can't for the life of me think how to express this, but thank you ladies, love to all of you (and sticky BFP's for goodness sakes!)

 

[Koromaru]

Remember that you're not alone, hun xoxo

 

[Tulip77]

I am joining in too...I need it!

I hate to think there's no God

I hate think if God is real, then why is he so partial

I hate the fact that my friends get pregnant easily just by mistake, and actually don't want the baby

I hate it to hear my friend say, she's just had an abortion...wtf!

I hate to think I am trying so effing hard to get pregnant for the past 10yrs & nothing has happened, except for a unexplained miscarriage

I hate it when my inlaws say, there's only one grandson to spread the family's name (meaning I don't have kids, leave alone a son!)

I hate it when people around ask "Are you planning to have kids"? Wait a minute married for 12 yrs & being havn't had any, doesn't say it all...effing idiots around!

I hate to see (not that I'm not happy for them) friends & fly married long after me, produced two babies...and still thinking about the 3rd one...

I hate going for baby showers (which I never attend), Christening and anything involving babies.....

I came to a country thinking I will not be harrassed for being childless...but na, I guess people don't change...

I hate so many things in my life at the moment...the main reason being I havn't been able to produce a baby....but I will be undergoing ICSI in Feb'11, hopefully that will be my answer...I have tried Clomid...didn't work...

I am glad to think I am not alone in this world...

Other than that, I am grateful for more things/blessings in my life...my husband, fly & my wonderful life...I could be worse off than some of my friends who have kids, and still don't have a LIFE...

So please, just becoz we don't have kids YET, let it make us a bitter person...

 

[jwelmel]

Can i continue...

Y do i have to be the one in all my family to have a Dh with MF..
Y do he think it will happen naturally when its low and he makes no effort to improve it..
Y does the world always assume that its the girls probs....
Y does my coworker who never gets her periods have 3 kids and she is harassing them...
Y does my whatever i try to do turn to be difficult...
Y does something that happens so naturally is nearly impossible for me...
Y is my mil's bff's daughter's edd during the time i have to visit my mil...
Y does my whole life suck bcos of this....

 

[Blue12]

I hate that any of us have to go through this.

I hate that there are so many more people who will continue to find out that they are in the same situation. I often look at young people/couples and think you don't even know what might be ahead of you.

 

[DragonMummy]

I hate that I got my period and I hate even more that it was 2 days late thus igniting a small flame of hope....

 

[Koromaru]

I hate people that give supid star trek names to their babies!
I hate that everyone at work is practically shitting babies at the speed of light!
I hate that OH is so positive every month and always seems to believe that infertility can't happen

 

[ermm23a]

I hate that clomid doesn't seem to make me ovulate. (hoping increased dosage will help)

I hate that none of my friends can relate to what I'm going through. I hate that when I need to talk about it, I have no one (in real life) that can relate.

I hate that not getting a period makes me think- maybe this is it! only to spend hundreds on HPT's and then realize that I just had another month of not ovulating.

I hate that I turn down offers for trips because I keep thinking, "maybe by then I'll be pregnant."

I hate when well-meaning co-workers mention that I better hurry up and have a baby soon because I'm not getting any younger.

I hate that I had to tell my MIL what was going on with my fertility issues because I can't take any more baby comments or emails from her.

I hate that this is so hard. I hate feeling like maybe I should just accept that I'm not meant to be a mom. I hate having to question why this is happening to me.