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Kai
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My son is freshly 5 months old and I'm aching to have another, even as I enjoy his growth and watching his personality unfurl. He is so much fun and so beautiful! I am so lucky to have such a wonderful child.
I feel obsessed sometimes, though. J and I are not at a point in our life that we could support another child (we're struggling as is managing full-time school careers and work) and I couldn't imagine being that selfish and putting more strain on our family and on Baby J. We want another baby in 3-5 years when we've moved to where we want to settle down permanently, so for now, I have the Paragard IUD. We've already talked about an "oops" and decided if there is a healthy, viable pregnancy while using the IUD, then there's no question of what we would do.
How can I get over this? And please! Somebody tell me I'm not alone in this madness! Is is just hormones?
ETA: The worst part and what I think is really helping the longing along is that I keep getting symptoms that could be early pregnancy symptoms (back ache, pains in my right and left side, no period, crazy meaness, darkened nipples, and a lack of interest in sex.). I'm forcing myself not to think about it (fat chance, lol). I've decided to just go with it, but I am really trying to just figure out if I'm going crazy and if there's any method anyone finds useful to let it go.
I'm just so freaked out and ashamed of myself.
I feel obsessed sometimes, though. J and I are not at a point in our life that we could support another child (we're struggling as is managing full-time school careers and work) and I couldn't imagine being that selfish and putting more strain on our family and on Baby J. We want another baby in 3-5 years when we've moved to where we want to settle down permanently, so for now, I have the Paragard IUD. We've already talked about an "oops" and decided if there is a healthy, viable pregnancy while using the IUD, then there's no question of what we would do.
How can I get over this? And please! Somebody tell me I'm not alone in this madness! Is is just hormones?
ETA: The worst part and what I think is really helping the longing along is that I keep getting symptoms that could be early pregnancy symptoms (back ache, pains in my right and left side, no period, crazy meaness, darkened nipples, and a lack of interest in sex.). I'm forcing myself not to think about it (fat chance, lol). I've decided to just go with it, but I am really trying to just figure out if I'm going crazy and if there's any method anyone finds useful to let it go.
I'm just so freaked out and ashamed of myself.
