Is this your first "go"?? My hubby is quite up for the idea of twins and is very much "we'd sort it" if it did happen - i'm not quite sharing his enthusiam about it at this moment in time. I'm just letting the practicailites such as child care costs, furniture costs, pushchair/carseat costs get in the way of everything.
Then we got the letter from the clinic saying as it is over 12 months since our last treatment we both have to go through the HIV/hep c & b etc tests again at £40 a pop, so i know nothing has changed since last time - but a bit annoying - but they won't do treatment until they are done.
I actually found the ivf part very easy. I found the injections OK, no symptoms at all, not even emotional. The last injection to mature the eggs though was a nightmare as the button at the end wouldnt work and both myself and the hubby were struggling to get it to work, thinking what the hell do we do if it doesn't work and do we run to the hosptial to try to get a replacment one etc?? It was the emotional journey before we got into the system that i struggled with. I would cry all the time, every advert on tv was babies, everyone was having babies, everyone was announcing being pregnant - which is why i never told anyone bar those i dorectly worked with i was pregnant, even people were shocked that i announced the start of my maternity leave that i was pregnant as i just appreciated other people were struggling and didn't want me posting every 5 minutes about every niggles/ache/pain etc.
But throughout the pregnancy i was always very non excitable thinking ..... right it's a positive i'll wait to be happy when i have the 8week scan, then it was no i'll wait to be happy at the 12 weeks scan, then 20 weeks scan, then 24week viable if born early, then 38 weeks considered full term, then no wait til the baby is actually born and in my arms and ok then i'll be happy.... It's such a wierd rollercoaster...
I had i remember about 2 weeks off work in total from before transfer to going back to work, and i thought personally that really helped. I took it easy the first day, but then i just carried on a usual after that - i was told by my nurse that it was akin to a grain of rice inbetween a peanut butter sandwich - it's not a vacuous space in there for it to just drop out either.
Plus i know this is wierd i knew my grandpa who dies years ago was on my side and "helping" things stick where they should - i just can't quite explain it and it's something that i kept very much to myself, but i know he is sort of my guardian angel looking out for me!
And i knew that i WOULD become a mum - i didnlt know by what method or path i'd be taking but i seriously knew i would be a mum one day - so that made me be a lot more relaxed when it did happen and i got that very faint first positive pregnancy test at 7dpo, then every other day until day 13 it kept getting darker and darker....
These are the questions i want to ask the consultant when we see them:
- am i more likely to get pregnant again as i took first time last time
- if you defrost two eggs at a time, if both survive can one be refrozen again, rather than destroyed or not used?
- actual costs of it all
- medicated or natural cycle transfer
- length of time for it to happen
- when could it happen (if we plan it it could be roughly the same time as we did it for our daughter, so they could be born at the same time.... plus/minus about that not quite sure
it's just not fair! 
