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[Perfect_pink]

Im posting this with such a heavy heart, i had a scan yesturday and it shows that sac is empty and looking like its a 5 week pregnancy, i should have been 7 weeks, theres no way im off with my dates not by 2 weeks aleast, its my 3rd loss in 6 months my first my son died at 2 days old then i lossed at 6 weeks in october, i dont think my husband and i can keep putting ourselves through this so we arnt going to try for a long time !

I have to go back in 10 days for a re scan but honestly think theres no point, i dont no how im going to cope till then !

 

[dancareoi]

i am so sorry to hear your sad news nad my hear goes out to you. I lost one at 8 weeks gestation in 2009 and one last week at 14 weeks gestation (i thought i was 17 weeks, scan at 13 weeks was fine)
I have never had to suffer the loss of a baby after it was born, I feel devastated having had a MMC so can only begin to imagine how you must feel.
I know this is hard to believe right now (as I am having trouble believing it myself) but everything happens for a reason. One day we will both look back and see that everything was meant to be.
At the time of my MMC in July 2009 i was lucky enough to have a beautiful boy and girl , 7 & 4 at the time, after my loss we tried again immediately and my beautiful baby boy was born May 2010. Everthing does happen for a reason, my gorgeous little boy would not be with us today (i know i would have another child, but not the littleone we know and love today)
We must try and stay strong but i know that is easier said then done as I am not coping myself at the moment.
I found that trying again straight away really helped the healing. (I don`t know how I will get over it this time as hubby doesn`t want to try again)
If you need to talk I will be here.
Love and hugs xxx

 

[Perfect_pink]

I used to belive everything happens for a reason but now i just dont no, i just wonder what we have done to deserve this life, our problem isnt getting pregnant its keeping the baby that is x

 

[moonbeam38]

oh perfect.... i am sorry xx

 

[marginalia]

I used to belive everything happens for a reason but now i just dont no, i just wonder what we have done to deserve this life, our problem isnt getting pregnant its keeping the baby that is x

It isn't about what you deserve because you obviously deserve better. I'm so sorry you are in this boat and that you have to wait to find out. Big hugs to you.

 

[dancareoi]

I agree, getting pregnant seems to be the easy part, keeping hold of our little ones is the difficult part.
i have posted the following poem numerous times and you may have already seen it, but if not, it is very heart wrenching but strangely comforting.
An Angel Never Dies

Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body you can’t hold
It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was meant to be,
God doesn’t make mistakes
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you do,
Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.



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[pcbs777]

Im posting this with such a heavy heart, i had a scan yesturday and it shows that sac is empty and looking like its a 5 week pregnancy, i should have been 7 weeks, theres no way im off with my dates not by 2 weeks aleast, its my 3rd loss in 6 months my first my son died at 2 days old then i lossed at 6 weeks in october, i dont think my husband and i can keep putting ourselves through this so we arnt going to try for a long time !

I have to go back in 10 days for a re scan but honestly think theres no point, i dont no how im going to cope till then !

i am so sorry for your loss and i too cant begin to imagine lossing a baby after birth/...i lost my little angel at 12 weeks! just when i thought we were in the clear i had a MMC...at the scan baby measured 11wk.4days and so it would have just happened days earlier...i am so sorry for your losses and so many in a short time also...
sending lots of love and hugs

 

[KatM83]

im sorry, it is hard to think about putting yourselves through it again i know..stay strong xxx