Well the twins are 5 weeks tomorrow and we have just had our first bad night, spent most of the night in tears and now just want to curl up in a corner and cry!!!! It was probably not as bad as it could get but i am now so tired the 5 broken hours of sleep a night i think are now getting to me. They both had a feed at 10.30 and slepy until 1am then Sam woke up and all i could get into him was 1oz of milk he then fell asleep and what ever i tried i couldnt get him to stay awake, then emily woke and she did take 3oz so not too bad. But then an hour later Sam woke again and took another 1.5oz which woke emily up and she decided it was time to do a massive runny poo which i chnaged and then 10 mins later she did another one at this point Sam was crying for his milk and so was i with DH laid next to me snoring his F***ing head off.(sorry angry and tired and upset this morning) Sam took yet just another 2oz i then put them both back down only for them to wake again at 4am and do exactlly the same thing again!!!!! At this point all i could think is i cant cope and i felt so mean for telling Sam and Emily to be quiet and that they were really starting to pee me off now. Then they woke again at 6.15am so i got up and this woke DS up so we all got up and i found myself telling DS off for the silliest little thing!!!! Sam has again taken 1 oz and fallen asleep, Emily has take 2oz before nodding off. I feel so guilty this morning for shouting at the twins and DS and really dont want DS to see me like this can hardly see through the tears at the min. Sorry but i just needed to get all this off my chest to people who would understand how i feel. (I should explain that DH doesnt wake up when the babies do as he has to take medication to help him sleep, due to suffering with depression for years and recently being diagnosed with mild bi-polar) but this doesnt help when he lays there snoring when i am so so tired.