jessyjones
Mummy to Boy / Girl Twins
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hey everyone!
well... im finally back... after 8 weeks of absolute mayhem of the twins being born im very happy to say that my little ones arrived into the world safe and sound.
there are a few scary parts to the story - so would advise if your scared of labour complications you might not want to read on... but if you do just take note that im still here, so are they... and everyone is doing great
ok.. here we go.
i hit 37 weeks of pregnancy when i went for my final scan to check on the weight of the twins and that everything was ok... which it was.. except for me lol... i was a state... i was huge... i couldn't walk... i couldn't eat... i cried pretty much constantly because i was just so exhausted. Anyway the Dr took one look at me and said he was going to try the stretch and sweep to get me going... thomas had been head down ( very low may i add) since 33 weeks so the pressure was horrible but the s&s wasn't painful... intact after the horrible pregnancy i had endured i dont think anything would of bothered me at that point... anyway... he did it... i went home...
6pm that evening i started getting very mild twinges, and thought nothing of it... i went to bed and was awake most of the evening with the twinges... but they were very irregular so never bothered with the hospital. at 6am they got a t ad more regular so i contacted the L&D ward and got asked to go in... they told me i was in labour... but very lightly so they would monitor me. about an hour later in walked about 4 drs ( you seem to have loads of people when your having miltiples) who very excitedly told me ' right... were here to break your waters!!
holy s**t!!! things just got very real... i went white and looked at my husband who just grabbed hold of my hand and told me i was going to do great!
so they burst the waters at 11am... never enjoyed that part to be honest... having someones hand rammed up there is never going to be pleasant - however after the second attempt of me crushing the nurses hand they gave me gas and air - my new best friend-
your waters breaking is the strangest feeling! its like you are constantly wee'ing yourself everytime you move... we found thomas had meuconium in his water so they kept an eye on that... attached some little electrodes to his head and told me they wanted to put a very very low dose epidural in me incase things went wrong and they had to get them out quick. so i agreed and they did it... i could feel EVERYTHING still which i was happy about because i wanted to be as natural as possible... except my left leg was completely dead lol,... i found it hillarious!
anyway... i was only at 1.5cm dilation by 12pm.. which carried on till 6pm at which point i was still 1.5cm!!! at 6.30.... they came and checked as my mum ( mum and hubby were both birthing partners) noticed i was getting irritable and feeling the need to push... so they came running in only to find i had gone from 1.5 to full dilation in half an hour! so i started pushing... as hard as i possibly could for an hour and absolutley nothing. he was stuck in my pelvis and wasnt moving... the more i pushed i felt excrutiating pain in my ribs... i cant explain it.. just sheer agony like something pushing but burning against your ribcage... i later found out it was emily turning around!!!
at 8pm they decided to take me into theatre as they still wernt born ... theatre terrified me... i never had a sheet up or anything as they wanted to keep talking to me as i wasnt having a section... they still wanted me to push etc... so we did it with forceps, a hell of alot of pushing, and an episiotomy.
Thomas was born at 9.37pm on 15th september 2011 weighing 6.12lbs yelling his little head off
emily was born at 9.55pm weighing 6.6lbs after yet more pushing etc she decided to come out bum first and holding on to her feet! no wonder she bloody hurt!!! she wasnt breathing at birth but after 5 pumps and what seemed like an eternity of me yelling 'why isnt she crying' i heard her wimper and it was the most fabulous sound ive ever heard. both my babies were here and they were ok.
now the bad stuff starts
when i came out of theatre... i basically wasnt well... i was being sick constantly, couldnt hold the babies for shaking and puking... and i had this almighty headache... without a doubt the worst pain ive ever felt in my life - those of you who have suffered migranes imagine one of them times 10...
i was gri[pping my head and rolling around screaming and the midwife basically didnt listen! it was now 12pm and i was screaming in pain, crying, still vomiting badly and my husband had hold of thomas - who ( now i cant remember anything that happened next so this is all what my parents / husband have told me ) i said to thomas ' im sorry but i cant do this anymore... i love you - and i closed my eyes.
mu mum ran out to grab someone and when she came back i was blue... i wasnt breathing, and my blood pressure had gone into what the midwife told me was 'clinically dead' territory...i then started to fit. everyone was taken out of the room and Drs. / resuscitation team ran in.
i was classed as technically dead for something like 35 seconds - but they managed to bring me back.... i had an eclamptic fit - after no signs other than the headache... which im still annoyed about them not listening to me about!
i missed the first 4 days of my twins life as i was kept in intensive care and unconscious. scans showed my brain function wasn't damaged etc but i had 3 blood transfusions... and eventually i came back
it wasn't easy... i had 2 little people who i hadnt seen for 4 days... its so strange loosing 4 days of your life with no memory... but through photographs everyone has showed me the babies still got to see me... photos of them laid on my chest thanks to the wonderful people in icu who let them in.... and the neonatal guys at boston pilgrim for looking after them whilst i wasnt able. i cant thank-you enough...
anyway... i have to keep an eye on my blood pressure, my iron levels etc but apart from that im now back to my old self... my poor husband & mum have nightmares about what happened.. it must be so hard for them... i cant remember anything after saying my head hurt...
all i will say is you will know if something isnt right... make sure someone listens to you..
i feel like someone was watching over me that day as drs / resus etc were all outside my door at the front desk when all this happened... im obviously lucky enough to have a guardian angel up there somewhere.. - the twins are fantastic and developing above level so i honestly wouldn't change a thing that happened. im a very very lucky girl and they were worth every second of the pain.
heres some photos of my beautiful little babies
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/007.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/0108.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/0115.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/IMG_6985.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/IMG_6933.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/IMG_6918.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/IMG_6886.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/IMG_6880.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/303035_302384459790930_100000581340467_1183828_950806096_n.jpg
well... im finally back... after 8 weeks of absolute mayhem of the twins being born im very happy to say that my little ones arrived into the world safe and sound.
there are a few scary parts to the story - so would advise if your scared of labour complications you might not want to read on... but if you do just take note that im still here, so are they... and everyone is doing great
ok.. here we go.
i hit 37 weeks of pregnancy when i went for my final scan to check on the weight of the twins and that everything was ok... which it was.. except for me lol... i was a state... i was huge... i couldn't walk... i couldn't eat... i cried pretty much constantly because i was just so exhausted. Anyway the Dr took one look at me and said he was going to try the stretch and sweep to get me going... thomas had been head down ( very low may i add) since 33 weeks so the pressure was horrible but the s&s wasn't painful... intact after the horrible pregnancy i had endured i dont think anything would of bothered me at that point... anyway... he did it... i went home...
6pm that evening i started getting very mild twinges, and thought nothing of it... i went to bed and was awake most of the evening with the twinges... but they were very irregular so never bothered with the hospital. at 6am they got a t ad more regular so i contacted the L&D ward and got asked to go in... they told me i was in labour... but very lightly so they would monitor me. about an hour later in walked about 4 drs ( you seem to have loads of people when your having miltiples) who very excitedly told me ' right... were here to break your waters!!
holy s**t!!! things just got very real... i went white and looked at my husband who just grabbed hold of my hand and told me i was going to do great!
so they burst the waters at 11am... never enjoyed that part to be honest... having someones hand rammed up there is never going to be pleasant - however after the second attempt of me crushing the nurses hand they gave me gas and air - my new best friend-
your waters breaking is the strangest feeling! its like you are constantly wee'ing yourself everytime you move... we found thomas had meuconium in his water so they kept an eye on that... attached some little electrodes to his head and told me they wanted to put a very very low dose epidural in me incase things went wrong and they had to get them out quick. so i agreed and they did it... i could feel EVERYTHING still which i was happy about because i wanted to be as natural as possible... except my left leg was completely dead lol,... i found it hillarious!
anyway... i was only at 1.5cm dilation by 12pm.. which carried on till 6pm at which point i was still 1.5cm!!! at 6.30.... they came and checked as my mum ( mum and hubby were both birthing partners) noticed i was getting irritable and feeling the need to push... so they came running in only to find i had gone from 1.5 to full dilation in half an hour! so i started pushing... as hard as i possibly could for an hour and absolutley nothing. he was stuck in my pelvis and wasnt moving... the more i pushed i felt excrutiating pain in my ribs... i cant explain it.. just sheer agony like something pushing but burning against your ribcage... i later found out it was emily turning around!!!
at 8pm they decided to take me into theatre as they still wernt born ... theatre terrified me... i never had a sheet up or anything as they wanted to keep talking to me as i wasnt having a section... they still wanted me to push etc... so we did it with forceps, a hell of alot of pushing, and an episiotomy.
Thomas was born at 9.37pm on 15th september 2011 weighing 6.12lbs
yelling his little head offemily was born at 9.55pm weighing 6.6lbs after yet more pushing etc she decided to come out bum first and holding on to her feet! no wonder she bloody hurt!!! she wasnt breathing at birth but after 5 pumps and what seemed like an eternity of me yelling 'why isnt she crying' i heard her wimper and it was the most fabulous sound ive ever heard. both my babies were here and they were ok.
now the bad stuff starts
when i came out of theatre... i basically wasnt well... i was being sick constantly, couldnt hold the babies for shaking and puking... and i had this almighty headache... without a doubt the worst pain ive ever felt in my life - those of you who have suffered migranes imagine one of them times 10...
i was gri[pping my head and rolling around screaming and the midwife basically didnt listen! it was now 12pm and i was screaming in pain, crying, still vomiting badly and my husband had hold of thomas - who ( now i cant remember anything that happened next so this is all what my parents / husband have told me ) i said to thomas ' im sorry but i cant do this anymore... i love you - and i closed my eyes.
mu mum ran out to grab someone and when she came back i was blue... i wasnt breathing, and my blood pressure had gone into what the midwife told me was 'clinically dead' territory...i then started to fit. everyone was taken out of the room and Drs. / resuscitation team ran in.
i was classed as technically dead for something like 35 seconds - but they managed to bring me back.... i had an eclamptic fit - after no signs other than the headache... which im still annoyed about them not listening to me about!
i missed the first 4 days of my twins life as i was kept in intensive care and unconscious. scans showed my brain function wasn't damaged etc but i had 3 blood transfusions... and eventually i came back
it wasn't easy... i had 2 little people who i hadnt seen for 4 days... its so strange loosing 4 days of your life with no memory... but through photographs everyone has showed me the babies still got to see me... photos of them laid on my chest thanks to the wonderful people in icu who let them in.... and the neonatal guys at boston pilgrim for looking after them whilst i wasnt able. i cant thank-you enough...
anyway... i have to keep an eye on my blood pressure, my iron levels etc but apart from that im now back to my old self... my poor husband & mum have nightmares about what happened.. it must be so hard for them... i cant remember anything after saying my head hurt...
all i will say is you will know if something isnt right... make sure someone listens to you..
i feel like someone was watching over me that day as drs / resus etc were all outside my door at the front desk when all this happened... im obviously lucky enough to have a guardian angel up there somewhere..
- the twins are fantastic and developing above level so i honestly wouldn't change a thing that happened. im a very very lucky girl and they were worth every second of the pain.heres some photos of my beautiful little babies
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/007.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/0108.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/0115.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/IMG_6985.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/IMG_6933.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/IMG_6918.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/IMG_6886.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/IMG_6880.jpg
https://i1020.photobucket.com/albums/af328/jessclewlow/303035_302384459790930_100000581340467_1183828_950806096_n.jpg
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