I hope so! By the way, my name is Ashley. Kind of obvious, I guess, but there you go.
I really hope I'm next! I've been feeling very down and mopey all day as well as desperate. So far, I've taken four hpts and one opk. I know, I know, I'm totally out of control. Of course, I thought I could barely faintly see something on the test strips (took one Wondfo this morning, not flu, and a Wondfo, Answer lab strip (I think 100 miu or whatever sensitivity so wasn't expecting much), and Clear Blue digi (Not Pregnant)this afternoon. The opk was super faint barely there so I was feeling really depressed. I figured if opks pick up pregnancy hormones, even if it wasn't positive yet, it should still be a little dark if there was any hcg to pick up, but I did some more reading and it seems it's not necessarily the case, though it is for some people. So I'm feeling a little better but not fantastic. Doesn't help that I've been home alone most of the weekend. DH works a really seasonal type job and I barely see him around Thanksgiving and Christmas. :/ We actually only bded once before I o'ed and that was a fluke. I'd given up on ovulating this month so wasn't using opks. And on top of that, I do have a stepson but because of custody issues and such, I'm not allowed to be alone with him (not because I'm unfit or anything, ex-wife is crazy and currently has primary custody. They went to mediation to get joint, she agreed and has been abiding by the new schedule BUT will not sign the papers because she found out her child support will go down. And she specifically told DH that nobody but the two of them and their respective mothers should watch DSS... she of course is not abiding by it, but DH is scared that if he doesn't, she'll get mad and will only let him have DSS every other weekend like the original plan stated. So I don't even get to be a mom to the kid that's not mine. I've known him since he was 17 months old (he's 3 1/2 now) and have only gotten to watch him without DH there once and it turned into a big fiasco. On top of that, DH told me yesterday that he really wants a baby now, that before he was okay with trying but it wasn't a big deal either way for him... and so I feel like even more of a failure that I haven't gotten pregnant in six months now. I guess it's different when you feel like you're letting down someone you love then when it's just you.
Well, if nothing else this month, at least I get to go to the doctor Thursday to hopefully start some preliminary fertility testing. Sorry for the mini-breakdown.
) too funny about the funny color pee I was startin to analyze what I drank that could possibly make it so...yellow! I don't know if this is a symptom but I was super winded going up and down the stairs at my parents place putting up Christmas decorations! Okay I was having some other weird things happen that may or not be legit symptoms: I got extremely nauseous at dinner time and ran to the bathroom w (tmi) diarrea, gassier than the fur baby (hard to keep blaming him! 
), and more spit in my mouth (caught myself almost spitting several times when telling a story). If I'm not preggo I will need to ask the doctor about that! Much more relaxed thanks to you ladies, OH said today out of nowhere "maybe you're pregnant!" and I was like "we shall see!" and that was that no more crazy in the moment SS
but I am only 10dpo, so could be that it is too early yet!
I'm Emma! Nice to meet you all!
My heart is hammering right now. Its so stinking faint. But I CAN see it. Will try and take a photo - but it's late here now and in shoddy lighting! 
. I noticed it when I went to the bathroom first thing that morning. It was kind of reddish at first so I thought I was getting AF a week early so I was disappointed. Then I went to the bathroom again about half an hr later because I was curious. It was just less that time and pink. Then later that day there was just a very small amount that was a light brown. I haven't had anything since about noon that day so it turned out not to be AF. I'm at 9dpo now. Really hoping this is our month. I would love to surprise his grandma on Christmas by having her open a box and have a pink and blue balloon come out and have a little onsie in there saying something about her being a great grandma.
I know she would start balling. She wants us to be pregnant so bad but doesn't know we are trying. 
is supposed to show but I'm not sure I can wait that long. I just hate seeing the negative. 
You've always got this post to vent on - don't be sorry if it makes you feel better! It's what we're all here for 
