Its so tough. I'm in the same boat and right now i feel like my head and heart are in 2 very different places.
Firstly i feel selfish for smoking, selfish that my life could be short lived and others who love me could be left without me, and mostly selfish because i could potentially hart our future baby.
Secondly i hate the fact that i feel i depend on them, the fact that i smell, my clothes, car and so on smell. I really really want to give up but i know i won't find it easy.
So many people have suggested the Alan Carr book to me, pop on amazon and check out the reviews. I am going to try that. As is my DH.
We saw the fertility specialist recently and he said that regardless of who smokes, it can make things harder and it can damage eggs and sperm....therefore affecting bubba. He also said that the miscarraige rate is 50% higher in smokers. Those thoughts alone terrify me, yet i still find it hard.
Now i don't know how true those "facts" are......but all i do know is we will get there, we just need and want to suceed and more importantly we need to believe in ourselves. Good luck xx