Can't believe I am here again.

Discussion in 'Second Trimester Losses' started by jennijunni, Nov 16, 2011.

  1. jennijunni

    jennijunni Well-Known Member

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    After losing our sweet baby boy Judah in June, and going through the trauma of his birth and almost dying. I knew that the next pregnaycy would be good, that everything would go well. After all I have 4 healthy children, with no problems with pregnancy or birth. We found out we were pregnant just 2 months after losing Judah, and were over the moon. I was excited, and confident that all was well. We had our appointments, we saw the baby on US 3 times, all healthy, with a great HB! We were so excited, we even started buying things, which I never do, but I was so happy. Until Sunday. I felt more wet than usual, and noticed some yellowish discharge, but thought nothing of it. I layed down, and when I got up I noticed that DC was more brown in color like blood. I immediatley started crying, I could not believe that anything could go wrong, again, this late!! We went to the ED, were I started to feel more confident that all was well, and that it was just a weird bleeding episode. When I got my US I knew right away that our baby had died again. A perfect, baby, dead in my womb at 14w2d. WTH is wrong with my body? I have never had issues, now 2 late term mc in a row in less than 6 months time. I opted for a D&E this time, since last time was catastrophic. I am numb, angry, and feel so broken. To add insult to injury Judahs EDD is tomorrow, I had my D&E on Monday. What an awful week, full of pain, longing, suffering, and unanswered questions. I do not want to be in this club, one time was more than enough pain. I just dont know what to do. Anyone else been through this, and had a successful pregnancy after? They have no idea what went wrong, baby looked fine, placenta looked fine. Is it just bad luck? What?
     
  2. mhazzab

    mhazzab Well-Known Member

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    Oh honey I am so, so sorry, I can't believe this has happened again. I dont have any answers to your questions all I can do is tell you how sorry I am and send you hugs xxx
     
  3. blav

    blav 2 angels and TTC

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    Oh honey, I'm so sorry. I wish I could answer your questions and take away your pain. Hugs and love to you and your family.
     
  4. BMR3

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    I Kinda no what your thinking. I lost my first baby at 38 weeks, then four years later gave birth to my healthy screaming baby boy, and then on sept. 9th found out that we lost our dd at 19 weeks. Both losses I sent for testing and got answers that everything was good. My doc sent my files to a specialist, she reviewed them and said that there was nothing she could test me for because I had one sucessful pregnancy. And also because during all three pregnancy I had no problems with me or the babies. So I understand where your coming from too. I am also thinking could this be bad luck? Sorry I don't have answer for you or me
     
  5. KamIAm

    KamIAm BnB Addict!

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    Ooh! Sweetie! :cry: I am at a loss for words... :hugs:

    I am terribly sorry this has happened to you and your family again.... I too, have no answers just love and support....

    Hang tight and know you will remain in my thoughts and prayers... :flower:

    :hugs::hugs::hugs:
     
  6. Andypanda6570

    Andypanda6570 3 Boys and an Angel Ava

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    I have no answers either , but my heart is breaking for you :cry::cry::cry:
    I am so deeply sorry, I hope someone on this thread can help you and I hope your doctor can at least give you some answers , this is terrible ..XOOXXOOX:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:
     
  7. amotherslove

    amotherslove MamaToLilyLucyAndLila<3

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    wow.. i am so so sorry...</3 i have no answers.. are the doctors considering running more tests? something to help prevent this all from happening ever again?
     
  8. jennijunni

    jennijunni Well-Known Member

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    I am going to have a hosts of tests done on me, because there was absolutely nothing wrong with either baby or placenta. If we cant find anything, I am going to proactively take progesterone, and baby asprin. I guess that is all I can do, and hope and pray for the best.
     
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    babylou Well-Known Member

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    So sorry....

    :hugs::hugs::hugs:
     
  10. kelzyboo

    kelzyboo Angel mummy and PAL

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    I'm so so sorry jenni, lots of hugs xx
     
  11. DueSeptember

    DueSeptember Mommy 2 My Angel Maya <3

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    jojo23 mum to 1 angel baby

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    awe hun im so so sorry!! its heartbreaking...all i can say is i really hope you get some answers soon and we're all here for you xxxxxxxxxxxx
     
  13. Nikki_d72

    Nikki_d72 Mum to 2 + twin angels

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    Oh no, Jenny, that's so awful. I'm so, so sorry you are going through this again. I'm so sorry for your loss and I'm sorry I don't have any answers for you. I hope you get some. xxx
     
  14. kiki04

    kiki04 A girl can dream....

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    Oh no :cry: This is my worst fear right now... I am so so so soooo sorry this happened to you :brat:
     
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    So so sorry. Hugs to you sweetie.
     

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