So after the last MC, Im terrified something is going to go wrong. Terrified that at this next appointment, there will not be a heartbeat, same as last time. Everytime I turn around, Im crying, or being depressed over the previous loss. When ever someone asks, "How far along are you?" I respond with "Well im ... but was supposed to be..." Can't seem to help myself. And to make matters worse, my ship date was in 4 days. I had joined the Army but fell pregnant shortly after my boyfriend came home again... Now i know it was my decision and since it happened so quickly, Im not supposed to be there obviously, but it still sucks.. Waaaaaa. When am I going to be able to relax enough enjoy this??? Sorrry for the rant, had to get it off my chest.