Hello all, and hope you had a good Christmas. I have been about on this forum for just over a year now, mainly just in the background reading all the threads. A bit of history of me. Had first son 2000, had miscarrage 2002, had second son 2003 and was sterilised 2004 ( biggest mistake of my life) my marriage ending a couple of years ago and me and my new man have been together for nearly 2 years now. and really want a baby has he doesnt have any. I have already been through a phantom pregnacy at the beginning of the year. and it was horrible. its amazing what tricks your body and mind can do to you. this made us want a baby even more, so we have started to save for a reversal. £3.500 is a lot to find... and we keep hoping and praying that by some magical way i fall pregnant naturally... Anyways back to my problem. I had my last period on either the 1st dec or the 8th stupid i dont know, but we have been so busy, i forgot to note it down but i do know it wasnt like normal very light and only for a couple of days ( normally i am at least 5 days) On the 19th Dec me and other half made love and he made a comment about my cm (sorry tmi) and i made the joke, well if i could fall pregnant, tonight would have been the night because i was ovulating, i knew this because earlier that day i had the stabbing pain like i do everymonth on ovulation day and incresed cm like jelly.. hot flushes etc.. nothing else was said about it.. Then next morning i work to a dull ache inside, thought it might have been just from the night before activites, tried to ignore it.. by that evening it was a lot stronger. i started making a mental note what was going on. So 20th Dec ~ dull aches in womb area. ~ got stronger as evening come. 21st ~ Dull ache still there. enough for me to notice it all day. 22 nd dec ~ A little stronger like more cramps ~ muzzy head, i couldnt get rid off.. 23rd Dec ~ More cramps, more watery cm, boobs a little sore on and off.. 24th ~ More cramping all day, so sleepy it was unreal, even my mum noticed how rough i looked.. and i felt pretty sick all day.. This got me me thinking and for some mad reason, I got other half to get me a test, it come up as bfn.. on looking back it was a waste of time, even if i was it would have been way to early.. 25th Dec ~ hungrey, well it hit me, all i wanted to do was eat.. it was crazy, normally i have one snack at lunch and then my dinner at night.. so for me to want food all the time is really not me and once again my mum notice this.. feeling sick was there on and off all day but felt better once i had eaten something.. crampings were still there... and was in bed, asleep by 10, just couldnt stay awake anymore.. thats really not like me.. normally i am up until 1-2.. 26th ~ Dec Much stronger cramps on waking.. boobs hurt if they were pressed.. ( when having a cuddle with other half) still was very hungrey, sleepy and feeling sick.. but was eating like crazy.. very bloated.. was in bed by 10 pm again 27th dec ( today) woke in the night to go for wee ( I never do that ) Cramps still there.. Bloated like a balloon, muzzy head.. So as you can see this is all a little confusing. Any advice would be great. There was one ladie on here I can remember her name but she has not long had her bfp and her sypmtoms were just like mine.. So could this be my mind playing games again, or .................. ( cant even bring myself to say/type it) Look forward to your replies and so sorry for the long message.. just had to get it off my chest.. Dont really have anyone to talk to about it..