Hi all, I'm feeling really down atm, I know how happy I should be but I am so constantly worried that this pregnancy is going to end in a MC like my last one did. With my previous pregnancies including the one I lost in march, as soon as I saw the line on the pregnancy test I fell in love with my babies, but I haven't allowed myself to this time because I can't go through the hurt I went through with my MC, I was lucky enought to get an early scan and saw babies heartbeat and I really thought that would make me feel better but it was almost like watching someone elses scan! I feel so bad I've tried talking to OH but he says that he's sure I do love the baby!! I feel so guilty because I know what some of you girls on here would give to be pregnant. People keep telling me that one I get to 12 weeks it'll be better, but tonight I got a phone call that a family friend had to give birth to her stillborn baby last night at 6 months.. I feel so bad for her and it hit home that it might not all be ok when and if I get to 12 weeks. Sorry for the long post and I'm sorry if I sound really selfish, Ijust don't know who else to turn to.