Sorry boo, gosh I was such a snappy cow, a million apologies! I hit a very low point and felt like I was a fish in a bowl and everyone was looking in on me (all in my own head) and was terrified of being judged. I sounded like a moody teenager, I blame hormones, please forgive me boo. I know you're an absolutely lovely person, everything anyone said to me that week I took wrong. My granddad hasn't spoken to me since then as I snapped at him over something. My son just started school and my OH left his job and we've been so stresses out. I am feeling a lot more positive and think of the baby as a boy now so it will actually be weird if it's not! I feel him/her kick and roll and I can't help but have a broad grin. Feeling the jabs and kicks from the outside makes me realise that this is a person, a part of me forever, someone who will steal my heart and change my life forever. Focusing on gender was a way for me to ignore the things I was really worried about. Baby has a name for either boy or girl now too . My anatomy scan is on the 18th of March and my mum is taking a day off work and a 3 hour drive to join me for it so I'm excited about that.