Could this be the beginning of the end.......

[MillieMoo]

.........in a good way!!

Its now been 3 and a half years since myself and dh started trying for a baby. It is now just over a year ago that i found out I had PCOS. Since then i've been on Metformin and Clomid. I'm now on my 10th cycle of clomid and still absolutely nothing! Not even a glimmer of a line! It has helped with my cycle length as now I'm pretty much 30 days on the dot every month.

But as the time's passed the side effects have completely disappeared. I wouldn't even know I was taking all these pills any more, they don't change the way i feel at all!

Anyway, 2 weeks today, finally, I will be having my lap & dye test. After numerous cancellations throughout the year I think this will be it! Finally some answers! In a weird way I want my tubes to be blocked because at least then i will have some sort of explanation as to why I can't get pregnant! I think my worse fear would be to wake up and for them to say there was nothing wrong with my tubes and for the drs to tell us to go away and just keep trying a bit longer because i don't think i could cope at all!! Does that sounds weird? Has anyone else thought like that?

I just want some answers and I feel this could point me in the direction of where i need to go next....hopefully that's down the road of a BFP!!!

Thanks for reading! x

 

[silarose28]

Hi Milliemoo

I felt exactly the same before my lap! I was just dreading waking up and them saying nothing was wrong - wierd but true! They found endo with me and to be honest I was really relieved. It helped a lot getting the diagnosis as I was referred for IVF which I am starting tomorrow.

Poor you having to be on clomid for such a long time. Even though your used to it I bet it is wearing you down. It's so horrible to be trying with no luck for such a long time. All the best for your lap - hopefully you will get some answers and your BFP really soon!!!

 

[ineedaseed]

i know what you mean about wanting them to find something, some answers would be good wouldnt they hun?!

i just wanted to wish you lots of luck and hope that the bfp is just around the corner xxx

 

[Blue12]

I agree when I had my lap all I could think was you better find me some answers and get me to the next step. Although I know a number of people who after a lap didn't have an answer yet still went to ivf next anyway.

Best wishes!!!

 

[Dancingkaty1]

hi im so sorry you have been ttc for so long, life is so unfair sometimes isnt it. we tried for 17 mths for number 2 b4 i conceived, it was my 4th cycle of clomid & i had been told i had polycysts on my only ovary so i really didnt think it would work. after my 3rd cycle of clomid i pushed for a lap & dye & had it done on 3rd feb of this year....they didnt find anything & i rememeber feeling disappointed, i had gone through having the op done & still didnt have answers i too in a way wated to hear 'oh ur tube was blocked but its clear now' or something along those lines.....but soooo happy to say i got my BFP on 20th feb!!! im sooo sure it was the lap & dye that did it so i really have my fingers crossed 4 u!!! xxx

 

[MrsJPC]

Milliemoo - firstly I love your user name!

I was exactly the same. I thought come on tell me what is wrong then fix it! Nothing wrong at all, all tubes clean as a whistle!

The month afterwards I fell pregnant, unfortunately I did miscarry, but maybe you'll be lucky, and you will fall pregnant.

Good luck honey, and what you are feeling is completely natural!

 

[MillieMoo]

Thanks to all of you for sharing your experiences! It really helps to hear that it has helped some of you! and thanks for the well wishes!

Dancingkaty, congratulations on the BFP! Thats great news! I really hope i follow in your footsteps!

MrsJPC, my username is my dogs name, well her name is millie but i started calling her milliemoo! ha! I'm sorry about your miscarriage, when did that happen? What treatment are you going through now?

 

[ilovecheese]

It makes perfect sense- to me anyway. Unexplained ANYTHING is the worst for me. If you get a diagnosis/answers, it's easier because you can figure out what to do next.

I really hope the doctors have some concrete answers and suggestions for you soon.