I have been married nearly four years, and I have wanted a baby since the day we got married (probably before). For many years, my husband was vehemently against having children, and I would get really upset at him and even cry. Finally, we both have good jobs and insurance and he decided that if I wanted one, then we could start trying. Now that I am pregnant, I am having these crazy feelings. I am not as excited as I thought I would be, and I sometimes start thinking about how different things will be and wonder if we made the right decision. Is this ridiculous? Let me say that the baby will be VERY loved, but now I am thinking maybe we should have waited a while longer, and I feel guilty about having these thoughts. I think about the fact that my career may suffer, etc. Anyone else experience something similar? Sheesh, I don't know. I haven't yet been to my first official O.B. appointment; maybe seeing the baby for the first time on a scan will snap my brain back into place.