thesockqueen
3rd Trimester
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I've been diagnosed by a DOCTOR (you know, a legally registered practitioner) with a chest infection and been given some amoxicillin to take for five days. I told a friend who instantly said 'Oh that's penicillin (no shit sherlock) what if your baby's allergic?! Just because you're not doesn't mean the baby won't be!' I was like 'Well surely that would've come up in one of the blood tests and the doctor wouldn't be so stupid as to give me something I can't have'. Then she just kind of said 'Okay, yeah, I'm just saying..' speaking in a tone that clearly suggested she thought I was stupid and didn't know what I was on about, it made me so angry It's like she was saying I should just stay infected, which is probably even worse in the long run.
THEN I was telling someone about how my ex was upsetting me and they promptly launched into an explanation that because I've had a stressful pregnancy I'll have a stressful baby who won't sleep. Well I'm sorry, you'd be stressed as well if you were nearly forced into having an abortion, then had to deal with no end of bad rumours/chinese whispers about the father of your child, THEN had to deal with most of these rumours being true and him quite willingly walking away from the situation that he is 50% responsible for, yet leaving me with 100% of the forthcoming responsibility. He hasn't even apologised for his actions, he still thinks I'm in the wrong. Someone even said to me 'Do you ever regret not going through with the abortion? You could've walked away from all this you know' like I've deliberately made my life difficult just because I decided not to kill my fucking kid. It's like everyone thinks I'm going to be a bad mother because of all the choices I've made pre-motherhood. I have really low self esteem so to an extent I believe it even though logically that's probably not what people are thinking. My friends treat me like an annoyance or an inconvenience or something, so I'm just sat around at home feeling ill and crying because nobody has any faith in me
Oh and I feel sick now, but I dunno whether it's the amoxicillin causing an inevitable allergic reaction to my baby or whether I'm just experiencing a placebo (someone said it so now I think it). I can't even say any of this to anyone coz they'll get offended
Edit: Oh yeah, and now I'm even more upset/stressed, so really by telling me all this these people are being zero helpful.
THEN I was telling someone about how my ex was upsetting me and they promptly launched into an explanation that because I've had a stressful pregnancy I'll have a stressful baby who won't sleep. Well I'm sorry, you'd be stressed as well if you were nearly forced into having an abortion, then had to deal with no end of bad rumours/chinese whispers about the father of your child, THEN had to deal with most of these rumours being true and him quite willingly walking away from the situation that he is 50% responsible for, yet leaving me with 100% of the forthcoming responsibility. He hasn't even apologised for his actions, he still thinks I'm in the wrong. Someone even said to me 'Do you ever regret not going through with the abortion? You could've walked away from all this you know' like I've deliberately made my life difficult just because I decided not to kill my fucking kid. It's like everyone thinks I'm going to be a bad mother because of all the choices I've made pre-motherhood. I have really low self esteem so to an extent I believe it even though logically that's probably not what people are thinking. My friends treat me like an annoyance or an inconvenience or something, so I'm just sat around at home feeling ill and crying because nobody has any faith in me
Oh and I feel sick now, but I dunno whether it's the amoxicillin causing an inevitable allergic reaction to my baby or whether I'm just experiencing a placebo (someone said it so now I think it). I can't even say any of this to anyone coz they'll get offended
Edit: Oh yeah, and now I'm even more upset/stressed, so really by telling me all this these people are being zero helpful.