painted_pony
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I have a scheduled csection for twins tomorrow morning, I will be about 37+3. I AM FREAKING OUT! At this point, I've got the shakes so badly. I just want to cry, honestly. My mom is taking my one year old for the entire time I'm in the hospital. She is complaining about that a lot, in very indirect ways. Which makes more stress for me and makes me worry about him. My husband tried to be nice by taking us to supper last night, we haven't gone out in close to a year since we can't afford it. I couldn't fit in the booth, which was very embarrassing. Plus I've gained 45lbs so far.
A million things are racing through my mind. Like, what if I don't make it. My son will never remember me. My husband would probably take up with some "happy hooker" since he doesn't have a great track record with picking out women, lol. I don't want my son to be raised by someone like that. What if I start dieing on the table, and I know what's happening but I can't save myself...which all this probably sounds entirely stupid, but I'm scared. I freak out at the dentist, can't imagine what will happen right before surgery
A million things are racing through my mind. Like, what if I don't make it. My son will never remember me. My husband would probably take up with some "happy hooker" since he doesn't have a great track record with picking out women, lol. I don't want my son to be raised by someone like that. What if I start dieing on the table, and I know what's happening but I can't save myself...which all this probably sounds entirely stupid, but I'm scared. I freak out at the dentist, can't imagine what will happen right before surgery