I suffer from depression, it comes and goes in big lumps. Last year I rarely had any depressive outbursts but ive had it really bad the past month. Im irritable and have been suggest I might actually be bipolar. But everytime I go to the doctors I feel like they just think im being a "silly moody teenager" Im 18 (almost 19!), and I had depression at first when I was 16 due to a friend dying and my long term boyfriend breaking up with me (Yeah I get that sounds silly but to me it was quite traumatic, I loved him so much and ive always been maturer than my age) I got over it and felt better but ive always had depresive episodes every now and then (no it is not PMT) I might go to the doctor again soon, but my real question is, will this make me a bad mother? Im not pregnant but me and my partner are considering trying, I have a good job and we're planning on moving out together very soon. I don't think its fair to cancel out having a baby just because I have depression, but will this mean I will definately have post natal depression or find it really hard being pregnant because my mood swings will be even more intense? Is there anything I can do to stop this? I don't want to go on anti-depressants because i'm worried it will stop me getting other jobs in the future.