So I found a depression thread but no one had posted on it since Sept so I thought I could start a new one. I'm feeling pretty awful today and thought I could share here. I Began having anxiety attacks back in 2006 when I was 18/19 years old. Not knowing what they were I continued to just ignore my feelings and therefore they got much worse in 2007. My anxiety then became or resulted in depression. 2007 and 2008 were very difficult years for me. I felt terrible all of the time and I would come home from work and bawl my eyes out for hours in the dark. I also had some pretty disturbing thoughts. My husband (then bf) thought I was losing it! I finally talked to my dr about it and he prescribed some antidepressants. Slowly but surely with the right dosage and time I became a happy person again with the occasional bout of anxiety or sadness. 2009 and 2010 (the year I got married) looked bright! Earlier this year (may) I finally weened myself (with supervision of my doc) off of all my meds (including bc) and was planning on starting a family. Well here I am now ttc with an irregular cycle (caused by coming off my bc) and what I think is a horrible hormonal imbalance (emotional and breaking out like crazy) and a 7 day late af (with 2 bfns!).Please tell me I'm not going crazy. Does anyone else know how I feel?