I posted this in my journal, but I’m not sure anyone reads it there anymore. Here I am...year 10 of desiring another baby. I think my depression has taken a turn for the worse. I can hardly get out of bed, endometriosis pain is excruciating. I’m feeling better physically today, but my mood is bleh. I have no desire to do anything. I feel like I’m walking through a cloud in my existence, if that makes any sense. I feel guilty for being depressed, but I can’t shake it. I have this internal dialogue in my head all day about how I should just snap out of it. I’m being a baby. You are fine. But I can’t help this feeling of hopelessness. I’m not suicidal, as I wouldn’t do that to my husband or kids. But I just don’t want to do anything or be anything anymore. I think I got in my head too much this cycle. I saw a faint line on a test, but I started my period a couple of days later. Now I’m battling saying something, or just keeping it to myself. I mean the outcome is still the same. No more early testing for me. Top it all off with working as a first grade teacher with children who have experienced trauma, thus they do violent and disturbing things...I can’t drag myself into work these days. I took my husband’s advice and booked an appointment with my GP. Any experience of TTC while being on meds for depression/anxiety?