Sam86
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Hiya everyone, i'm so glad i found this forum as i dont really have any female friends around me to talk to about this stuff (or non that would be interested!)..
After my first miscarriage of our un expected pregnancy about 2 weeks ago, i'm really desperate to actually start trying for real.
I'm down because my fiancee has no plans for kids for "a good few years yet" but to me thats millions of years away and I cant wait!!!
I understand him completely which is why i feel bad feeling like i want one now NOW NOW NOW!
He is 20 next week and i am 22 next week (3 days after him) and he is in his 3rd yr of uni when he starts again next month, so i know he wants to do his thing and finish his degree, get a good job etc..
I have been working full time for over a year now after finishing college, i've never been career minded, i have always just wanted to be a mother and raise children, so for me this is difficult to think that i'm waiting for him to want our children.
I dont want to be with anyone else, he is the love of my life, my first love, my first everything, but sometimes i cant help but feel a bit angry that i'm putting my life on hold whilst he has his life.
Am i being really selfish?
I think i feel even more anger towards him when he says about waiting for kids, because before my M/C we had an appointment booked for a termination because he didnt want it. He cried and cried and said we wouldnt cope, and i would say 'ok ok im sorry we wont have it'. Yet when i cried, i just cried and he would say nothing.
Sometimes i think i'll just get pregnant and not tell him until its too late, but i know i would never do that. I want us BOTH to want a baby. It's just a fustrating situation.
.. sorry to rant.. like i say, i have no female friends to use!!!
Sam. xxx
After my first miscarriage of our un expected pregnancy about 2 weeks ago, i'm really desperate to actually start trying for real.
I'm down because my fiancee has no plans for kids for "a good few years yet" but to me thats millions of years away and I cant wait!!!
I understand him completely which is why i feel bad feeling like i want one now NOW NOW NOW!
He is 20 next week and i am 22 next week (3 days after him) and he is in his 3rd yr of uni when he starts again next month, so i know he wants to do his thing and finish his degree, get a good job etc..
I have been working full time for over a year now after finishing college, i've never been career minded, i have always just wanted to be a mother and raise children, so for me this is difficult to think that i'm waiting for him to want our children.
I dont want to be with anyone else, he is the love of my life, my first love, my first everything, but sometimes i cant help but feel a bit angry that i'm putting my life on hold whilst he has his life.
Am i being really selfish?
I think i feel even more anger towards him when he says about waiting for kids, because before my M/C we had an appointment booked for a termination because he didnt want it. He cried and cried and said we wouldnt cope, and i would say 'ok ok im sorry we wont have it'. Yet when i cried, i just cried and he would say nothing.
Sometimes i think i'll just get pregnant and not tell him until its too late, but i know i would never do that. I want us BOTH to want a baby. It's just a fustrating situation.
.. sorry to rant.. like i say, i have no female friends to use!!!
Sam. xxx