Do you pretend you're not pregnant?

TW: Children mentioned

I just went through my 6th loss - 3rd one this year, 1st in the second trimester (almost 17 weeks). I am devastated - but more than that - the idea of going through four months of pregnancy again only for it to end in a loss is terrifying - and even more terrifying is that if my losses are getting later - what if the next is even later?!?!?

I thought maybe the only way to cope would be to pretend I wasn't pregnant at all - get anti-nausea drugs, anything else that would take my mind of the symptoms - and just pretend nothing is happening - accept any pregnancy symptoms to be just part of normal life, and not a journey towards having a baby.

Or - the other option - to just give up and not have any more (I have children, I just didn't think I was done yet).