dont know whats up with me

[Janie66]

but today I have been so blooody low, I been crying, thinking I wont ever get to hold our baby that I want so much, it wont ever happen, I am usually so posistive,but today Im so negative about it all, guess its been so long TTC now, and its all getting to me, Hubby has had another SA done monday, soppose to be back thursday, wasnt, rang in again today, said it still wasnt back in, so now have to wait the weekend till Monday to get them, think it was this that started me off being so negative, guess Im worried his SA is worse than last one......................dont know how to feel or do if so we cant afford IVF, so expensive, I have just turned 44 on wensday, so guess thats another negative when your on the chasing a baby train, another reason why Im feeling like I am, urghhhhh....... Im crying again as I write this, tears wheling up in my eyes I need a good kick up my bum or something sorry to moan all xxxxxxxxxx

 

[Minno]

Oh Janiee66, big hugs for you Sounds like its been a combination of things that have all come together to make you feel low today. I'm 41 in a month and know how hopeless it can all seem. I fluctuate in how I feel over the course of each cycle and currently at a low point too as approaching AF - again
WE just gotta keep on going - there's nothing else for it. Try, try, try, try, try and then try some more.
Hopefully one day our patience will be rewarded and it will all be worthwhile. Sending you a big hug and box of choccies xxx

 

[Chilli]

sorry to hear you're feeling so low - we all feel like this sometimes - it's a constant battle and when results and things are delayed we feel so powerless. i hope you're feeling better today.

 

[truly_blessed]

ar Janie sweetheart. I'm 41 in Dec and try not to think about it, it would drive me to distraction. Almost 12 months ago to the day I got my very first BFP ever but it sadly ended in MMC in late Nov. I do catch myself looking at someone holding a baby and for split second the reality hits me but I manage to switch the thought off straight away. I know I'm not getting any younger and each month that passes adds a little more doubt but I need to take my head out of the sand soon and visit the GP. It just makes the problems all so real then and I'm scared of how I'd cope with the stress.

Lots of luck to you

xx

 

[iamrestored77]

Sorry to hear i pray you get answers soon.

 

[FutureMommie]

Janie, I'm so sorry that you are feeling so low today, TTC can be so emotionally draining. I know, we have been trying to ttc our 1st for 31 months. But don't give up it will happen. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that your sa results are good.

 

[Janie66]

Thank you all for the replys, so nice of you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxx feeling little better today xxxxx

 

[babyanise]

 

[bdwell1904]

I have been feeling similar last couple of days, just realized 45 will be here in 3 months. Where has this year gone to? Hope you feel better soon. Keeping positive thoughts about your test, hun.