Early Miscarriage and Now I'm at a Loss

[ImpossibleGir]

Until yesterday I didn't even know I was pregnant. I had a few symptoms, but my period was only three days late and with my birth control that was normal. There is a pregnancy test in my purse from two months ago that I was tempted to take, but I didn't want to try to early and get a false negative.

I got super sick two days ago and I could not figure out why. For an hour I just laid on the floor, then I got into bed and slept for a couple hours. After that I was fine until last night. My "period" started early in the day, and it was way heavier than normal. By night time I was wondering what was up, and I checked my period tracker to see if a pregnancy was possible. In order for me to be pregnant I had to be 5-6 weeks along, which made sense.

I went to the bathroom again after that, and this time there were clots and it was very clear what was happening. I was so alone, and I felt like I couldn't tell anyone. An 18-year-old who isn't in a relationship shouldn't be pregnant, and certainly shouldn't find out this way. This morning I told three close friends and the would-be father, who is a close friend of mine. He is super understanding and supportive, as well as my friend who had a similar experience.

Unfortunately I still have no one who I can really talk to about it, and there's so many emotions going on right now. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel, or why I love that little tiny baby so so so much. I named my baby the second I knew that he/she existed, and I don't know if that's normal. Basically I feel super alone and like no one I can talk to about this experience will understand.

I'm not sure why I'm posting this. Maybe to vent? Maybe to see if there are any similar stories out there? All I know is that this sucks. I can't wait to get back to normal physically, and I can only hope to get back to normal emotionally.

 

[Cloveredwards]

Hello,

I hope you're alright. It's really an awful thing to go through on your own and really you've done the right thing by coming here to find ladies in a similar situation. That really does help.

I kind of had the same thing as you. I had a period and then 2 weeks later was bleeding (heavy) again, which was not usual for me. I then took a test whilst still bleeding which came back positive 2-3 weeks. I had an early scan which confirmed that I was measuring 5+2 weeks and had to have loads of blood tests which confirmed I was loosing the pregnancy. It really is the hardest thing I've ever been through and I would advise that if there is anyone you can try to talk to about it then I really would. You need the support and care.

You take care of yourself and if you ever need to talk to anyone then please message me.

Cx

 

[ImpossibleGir]

Thank you I am trying to find some one to talk to for sure. Thankfully my friend is sticking with me and he is also being hit hard by the baby we almost had.