Early scan tomorrow and I'm petrified

[Manth]

I will be 6 weeks tomorrow and doc has arranged an early scan because of my history (and I'm going out of my mind!). I am having completely irrational thoughts, sometimes good, sometimes bad!

Have bad stomach cramps today which am not sure if are down to nerves, the fact that I have an upset stomach for the last couple of days (sorry tmi) or its the worst starting to happen again.

OH is focusing on anything but tomorrow which is making me feel a little alone and to be honest, I just want to know either way! I know that if my dates are a little wrong, I may go tomorrow and not see/find out anything anyway but I just want to go and see my little bean with a flickering heartbeat. I don't want another 10 day wait to go back and be told 'sorry' again.

Sorry ladies, just feeling down, sorry for myself and scared xxx

 

[livinginhope]

Aw, Manth there's no need to apologise, we all know the feelings you're describing... and it *is* a scary thing, particularly if your OH has a way of coping that means you don't get much support (mine's similar...).

After a MC in May last year and a MMC in Dec, I was petrified this time around... especially as if I wanted a reassurance scan I had to go back to the same place where we originally found out about the MMC. I also had stomach cramps and an upset tummy beforehand, not sure if they were nerves or baby-related either! But it all worked out well, I was lucky enough to see a heartbeat and be told the little bean was measuring right for my dates.

I was 8 weeks though, and very sure of my dates (charting), so there wasn't any 'is it too early' anxiety, I can totally understand why that would make you a bit wobblier about the whole thing, I'd be the same!

I'll be thinking of you, and hoping that you get some good news XXXX

 

[Manth]

Thank you so much for your reply and your reassuring words. I know exactly what you mean about going back to the same place as finding out bad news - the 3 other times I have been where I am going tomorrow, it has never been good news.

I really have everything crossed for a heartbeat tomorrow! A girlfriend is coming with me as we are without a car right now and I want to take someone that I know will support me no matter what, rather than just look at my with a blank look (like my OH would!). So anyway, I guess I'll find out tomorrow morning and I hope that I have some good news for you.......

I just feel totally weird since yesterday. Have been super positive since my bfp, have been trying to picture me actually having a baby this time around but it seems to have just all gone out the window now and all I can do now is cry and focus on is the stomach pain I have. Am driving myself crazy!!!!

Thanks for your support livinginhope (you actually live very near to where I originally come from!!) xxxxx

 

[SabrinaKat]

good luck! I had my first scan at 9wks with my successful pregnancy; too scared to go before my 7-8wk mc date/milestone (growl!) -- wishing you very good, positive news!

best wishes

 

[livinginhope]

Small world, Manth!

Glad to hear you've got some good support there from a friend, I do hope you get the news we're all hoping for

 

[Manth]

good luck! I had my first scan at 9wks with my successful pregnancy; too scared to go before my 7-8wk mc date/milestone (growl!) -- wishing you very good, positive news!

best wishes

Thank you! My mc date/milestone date was 5 weeks so this last week has been a week filled with running to the loo on knicker checking patrol and just general worry!! xx

Small world, Manth!

Glad to hear you've got some good support there from a friend, I do hope you get the news we're all hoping for

Well, I went for the scan today and it was GOOD NEWS!! I saw a heartbeat!

I don't know how many beats per minute etc but I asked the sonographer if the heartbeat was ok and she told me it was perfect and I had the start of a very healthy baby growing! Measuring at 5.9mm, which apparently is pretty much bang on for my dates (not massively irregular cycles but certainly not regular!) so I am all smiles.

OH over the moon!! He seems to have changed immediately and is being amazing already. Thank goodness for my friend taking me, she held my hand, kept me talking while we waited to go in and took me shopping and for lunch afterwards.

Althought I am sure the worry won't stop throughout the whole pregnancy, I do feel I can relax a little more than I have been! Thanks for your support and messages xxxxx

 

[livinginhope]

That's *awesome* news Manth, congratulations!