Hey ladies,
I dont know whats wrong with me today, but i cant help myself, every so often i burst into tears, for no reason.
Im currently 40+ 5days pregnant, so im assuming im just frustrated for being overdue
i suppose im just feeling sorry for myself, my Oh is absolutely fantastic, but i cant help feeling upset, i dont want to do anything or see anyone, and thats really not like me, throughout this whole pregnancy i have always been positive,
Anyone else feeling like this?
to ALL of us!
i've been feeling like this aLAWT this week!! especially today... i'm 39wks tomorrow so def getting close, only 1cm dilated tho and about 25% effaced.
my mom (whom im not SUPER close with but she's still my mom nonetheless) emailed me this morning to say she's not coming out to see us until end sept/first wk oct which means she'll miss OH and in almost 2yrs, they've never met! not only did that bother me, but the fact that she said she needed to work more before coming out when she and stepdad took special time off to travel 14hrs for a wedding anniversary party AND dragged out their move from house 1 to house 2, when in my estimation it could have been done in a day, not 3 weeks. i was just so frustrated with her attitude and not even really seeming that excited that i, her eldest daughter, is having the FIRST grandbaby in the family.. i just felt SO unimportant, so i told her just that when i replied.
maybe i took things too personal, as she replied to me all upset and defensive and i almost feel badly that i FINALLY got off my chest a cpl things that have bothered me. HOWEVER, i needed to own up to how i was feeling.
*sigh*
this was the start of my day, well actually the phone ringing at 8.20am was the start of my day and must've woken me up in a funky headspace cause the interaction with my mom a cpl hours later set me over the edge!
i had errands to run and every time i got in my car to drive, i just started crying! i was talking to LO and telling her i'm not upset cause of her, just one of those days and that i will do everything in my power to make sure we have a better relationship than my mom and i do....
PLUS, my OH is working away, not back for 6 days yet and has already been gone for 3wks! i think i just hit a wall - no patience, no strength to keep myself positive, no one to hug
, i've been doing everything at home on my own and while in the 'big picture' i know everything is ok, i've got an amazing OH who's away working his butt off for us, his girls, i just kinda crumbled from all the pressure and had a serious melt down.
thanks for listening to my mini-rant ladies
it's been one of those days and i can DEF relate to feeling overly emotional/irritable/tired of being alone/def needier and i'm sure the fact that OH is away, and has been for so long, isn't helping matters... i'm sad that soon i won't be pregnant anymore as i've LOVED being preggers, but on the PLUS SIDE, my Sophie will be in my arms SOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOON and that's a little overwhelming too! overwhelming and AWESOME!
it's good to know i'm not alone in the emotions dept.. must be part of the process!
bless x