everyone else getting pregnant but you?

[megapatt01]

okay as i've said in 100 other posts, i finished up with the provera, and i'm waiting to take clomid 50 mg...

well i've been off the provera for 3 days now and still no period. which is really creeping me out. so maybe in a few days it will come and i can begin the clomid.

today at work i found out another one of my coworkers is pregnant!!! just wanted to know if anyone else has problems coping with all these other people you know getting pregnant? i mean, i'm happy for them. but i'm so envious i think i could scream!!!!

am i the only one?

 

[leasap]

you definatly not alone there, everyone at my work is pregnant or recently given birth.

Very happy for them, but always seems to be the ones who least expect it. we been TTC for over 2 years not once had a positive on a OPK or HPT, im on my 3rd mth of clomid at 100mg after taking northesterine to being on a period. Mine came about 5 days after my last tablet. so your still early days yet hunni

i found taking clomid just before bed time was good because when i first used to take it, i got bad side effects, so taking at night u can sleep thro them xxxxx

 

[Serene123]

I feel your pain. My sister is pregnant for the second time since I began TTC. Cuts like a knife tbh!

 

[MariaF]

Nope, you are defo not alone!!!

Im exactly the same! Even worse as I even find it hard to be happy for them because the jealous feeling is killing all the positive emotions

I just completed my first cycle of Clomid and am happy to say that I ovulated!! But didn't get pregnant. Still, Im just happy to have ovulated on the minimum dose of the drug.

My period started on day 3 after stopping Provera. BUT I heard it can take up to a WEEK to start the period!!!! Best of luck xxx

 

[hopes fading]

You aren't alone and like MariaF; I can scarcely feel pleased for anyone who is pregnant - unless I know they have struggled to conceive at least a bit. I have to sit next to a girl at work who is accidentally pregnant (?!?) and it is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. The worst part is all of my coleagues know what OH and I are going through and yet they talk about her bump constantly - it's almost as though everybody is trying to rub my nose in it.

I have even started to imagine that people will announce a pregnancy - eg. friends who have just returned from holiday - I convinced myself they would come back pregnant!

This is really turning me into a crazy person - thank goodness for B&B so at least I know I am not alone!

Baby dust and loads of luck to all.

X

 

[fluffystar]

If itss not friends or work colleagues getting pregnant, its people on the tv too that i find myself getting upset by!!! Ha ha, am I completely mad??

 

[Zipp]

Yip, even all the tele programmes seem to be about getting pregnant.

 

[FrothyBunny]

I've begun getting anxiety dreams about all my friends getting pregnant first, its sucks, and everywhere I look its baby this and baby that and bumps and people complaining about the pain and the weight and

Its hard to be positive about other people when it feels so unfair....

 

[Firefox]

I am completely the same, found out today one of my friends at work is pregnant... she'd not trying for long. I feel absolutely awful but I actually felt angry (why cant it happen to me) and jealous/ just wanted to cry......im scared im turning bitter and twisted I dont want to feel like this about my friends and I know this is going to happen alot more I need to be able to deal with it somehow without driving myself crazy! Most of my friends are pregnant at the moment or have just had babies, there is no escape!!

 

[hopes fading]

Firefox, I am with you on all of that. I have to keep reminding myself that potentialy it could get an awful lot worse before it gets any better. Some days I don't think I can cope with another announcement / set back but I seem to keep getting the strength from somewhere. I guess it's the same for us all; we are stronger than we would ever
have credited ourselves. I hope we get our dreams come true very soon. X

 

[Firefox]

Hopes you are right! Things probably will get worse...i will be absolutely gutted if any more of my friends get pregnant before me or even worse have their 2nd or 3rd!!

I thought that i was only really down (since taking clomid) up to ov, but this cycle i seem to be really down after ov too, seems like there is no end!! Think it might be where im still a bit angry with the 'why cant it happen to me'...I need to shake this attitude but I cant seem to at the moment, i dont have any interests at the moment other than ttc!

Do you think that negative thoughts and being down can effect things in the 2ww? i dont think im doing myself any favours by being so down.

 

[hopes fading]

Hi Firefox.

I really don't know about the negative thoughts - people keep telling me that it will happen for me if I'm positive but that is not something I feel often these days; so does that mean I will never fall pregnant? When put it like that I think no, it's science, plain and simple. But I suppose we should always aim to be positive as it is better for our mental health in general. And in my case, it's better for my relationships - not only with OH but just about everybody. I worry that if this continues much longer I will have alienated myself from everyone I know.

I just saw another FB announcement from a girl who was in hospital having number 1 when I went for my D&C in Feb 08; I actually saw her there. Hurts like hell. Strangely though, I find it harder when people are having their 1st?

Doesn't seem to be much justice in the world...

X

 

[megapatt01]

i completely agree with both of you gals! my dh keeps telling me that he wants me to be happy with "just" him. and by all means, i'm extraordinarily happy with my husband, but i need a baby, too! i feel like we'll never be complete as a couple without one. i just generally feel like it's human nature for man and woman to have a baby! am i the only one? and i'm SICK AND TIRED of seeing other girls getting pregnant and not me!!!

 

[stellargaze]

Even worse, nearly all of my friends got pg on the first try!!! What are the odds? And now when I go on fb, the home page is filled with baby pictures and even sonograms. I think I'm finally beginning to accept on some level that it may not happen for us

 

[serendippy]

Oo i can totally relate to this. Weve had a high percentage in last year of people being pregnant in work and the more im struggling trying to conceive, the more people announce their pregnancies. Defo been down in the dumps about this lately, mainly cos we had a chemical last month.

 

[megapatt01]

stellargaze,
i've been trying to make myself accept the fact that i might not ever have a child, either. i mean c'mon, some people in this world are infertile, and will NEVER have a child. i just don't want to be one of those women. i'm a CNA at a nursing home, and there's one older lady imparticular. her husband, her brothers & sisters, her parents, everyone's dead...except her. she was never able to have any children. so NO ONE visits her because there's no one left. it's sincerely depressing. and i do not want to be the woman when i'm older, nor do i want my husband to be that man...

you know?

 

[Firefox]

stellargaze,
i've been trying to make myself accept the fact that i might not ever have a child, either. i mean c'mon, some people in this world are infertile, and will NEVER have a child. i just don't want to be one of those women. i'm a CNA at a nursing home, and there's one older lady imparticular. her husband, her brothers & sisters, her parents, everyone's dead...except her. she was never able to have any children. so NO ONE visits her because there's no one left. it's sincerely depressing. and i do not want to be the woman when i'm older, nor do i want my husband to be that man...

you know?

I hear you there!! We'll pray it wont be us (im not religious or anything) but hey if it helps!!

 

[babybumpage]

I know the feeling! I go to the store, and all I see are ladies pushing strollers with babies in them, or mom's walking with children (and most of the mom's pay no attention to the kids!). I go to the OBGYN office and they are everywhere!! Last time I went (last friday) I turned to my husband and whispered "I'm surrounded by them, aren't I?" and what's hilarious is he knew EXACTLY what I meant and whispered back "yep... you sure are..." I mean how much more in tune can my husband be than that!!! What made it the worst was we moved across the country, so I have no friends here. My friend back home got pregnant the month after her wedding and complained to me non-stop about it, then has her baby a month ago and complains about not sleeping,etc.... do you KNOW what I would go through to have a baby???? Do you know what I HAVE gone through to have a baby??? Then the only friend I made here turns out to be Latter Day Saints religion, and they believe they should have every child they can! She had 2, and insisted on taking me everywhere with them. I turned around at the first gathering she took me to "was supposed to be an egg hunt for children" and every single woman in the room was VERY pregnant AND had at least 2 children on their laps, all babies or toddlers. I'm like WTF people... and she knew what we had been going through. So she moved two months ago, and I'm lost all contact with her, on purpose! Some people are so heartless! So yeah, that's my rant for this evening, I know EXACTLY how you feel!

 

[BabyBubbles]

Glad I'm not alone. Having a bad day today. Just found out my cousins pregnant. So thats my sister (who already has 3) and my cousin (who already has 2). She told me this morning and i just broke down. I cant bear to look at bumps. Currently trying to get bmi down so i can get clomid. Currently on cd54.........

Me and oh are getting married soon and i cant help but feel im sort of trapping him if that makes sense. I think i will always feel like i failed him if we cant get pg and will feel that he would rather be with someone else who can give him children. see, said i was having a bad day!!

Everyone says it will happen, but what if it doesnt????

Babydust to all of you xxxx

 

[megapatt01]

well ladies here's what happened to me. a few nights ago a girl i worked with told me she's pregnant! and i was soo happy for her, she's a friend. but a few days later she tells me that she didn't even want me to know, or want to tell me that she was pregnant because she knows how badly i want one and how hard DH and i are trying!!!!

how pathetic does that make me sound? because it sure makes me feel like crap that the girls i'm friends with can't even be happy about their pregnancies when telling me?


arrrrrghhhhhhhhh....