DH and I have not used any birth control for the last 14 months and still no baby. Several of those months, though, we definitely missed the window due to illness, surgeries, DH being too tired, etc., so there are only some of those months I am certain we did it "right"...still, I am 38 years old and feel I am running out of time. Everyone else I know seems to get pregnant without any of this hassle, without knowing anything about how their body works, and I am doing fertility yoga, acupuncture, myriad tests and scans, supplements, on an incredibly restricted diet and obsessively using opks and trying to get DH to BD on this day or that day (sometimes to no avail). I have a fibroid which is partially subserosal and partially intramural; it supposedly does not distort the cavity but I am worried it may be having some other effect such as reduced blood supply to the uterus. My cycles are completely irregular, making timing difficult even with opks because I have to suddenly interrupt my husband's very busy schedule and say, "It has to be today!!" with no warning. Thousands of dollars have already been spent in the past on polyp and fibroid removal, and now spending at a minimum another $500 or so per month on acupuncture, supplements and doctors. I know people spend MUCH more than we have, but we don't have much left to spend, and our insurance covers nothing. DH doesn't seem to care about this as much as I do and still has not gone in for semen analysis (I'm afraid he might have at least a mild form of retrograde ejaculation). He always comforts me when I burst into tears after yet another pregnancy announcement from a friend, but I feel alone because it's so hard to get him to BD on the right days, much less go in for procedures, and it seems that none of this ever even crosses his mind until I start crying. I'm beginning to feel depressed, waking up every day with a sick feeling of sadness, dread, and failure. Don't want to see people or do anything. I feel like I am inferior to other women, like it's some kind of magical power that everyone has but me. I know none of this is true and it's just my head talking, but I'm so tired of it. So sorry to be negative, hopefully I can shut up and stop feeling sorry for myself now. Things could be so much worse.