So, last month I suffered a miscarriage. It hit me incredibly hard, to the point where I''m not even sure I want anymore children, I'm terrified of being pregnant. Last night, I had to take my bra off to go to sleep and that rang an alarm bell...That's how I suspected I was pregnant last time. We weren't the most careful the couple of times we had sex but I have PCOS and I mean, it's very unlikely to happen naturally AGAIN and I didn't have any ovulation symptoms at all this cycle. I should have been more careful, but I couldn't even think of contraception as it brought my thoughts back to the baby I lost. Completely dumb on my part. Anyway, I took a cheap test this morning just for peace of mind, 3 days before AF and there is a faint line. I feel guilty, I'm not happy. All I can think about is the baby I lost and how unfair the whole situation is. I'm also terrified of going through the same thing again. I just want to cry.