feeling really down today:(:(

[prettynpink29]

I am having a very hard day

Feeling like things are never gonna turn around for me.. Very frustrated with my body and wish I could trade it in for a new one We are approaching 8 months TTC and I am so afraid this is never gonna happen..

Gonna have to make a really tough decision coming up.. Am I gonna have a 3rd LAP, to see if endo is preventing pregnancy and risk having even more scare tissue and adhesion's in my belly.. Are we gonna choose to keep going with clomid. Are we gonna try IUI. Are we gonna move on to injectables. Are we gonna choose to have my eggys fertilized and frozen, then one day use a surrogate. Decisions, Decisions... What is the rite decision, I don't even know anymore! Never thought I would have to go through all this at age 22!

Sorry, just looking for some comfort

 

[socitycourty]

awww I'm so sorry to hear this. I don't know much about endometriosis but I hope you can come to the right decision, I personally don't believe that motherhood has to include pregnancy

 

[socitycourty]

 

[prettynpink29]

socitycourty thank you!! I don't know what I would do with out the support of this website. It has been so helpful to me.

 

[dachsundmom]

Oh Heather!

 

[irmastar]

i was feeling the same way 2 days ago n still a little sad bc its been 6 months since dh n i started ttc and i wasnt on any kind of birth control prior that but i had the copper iud plus my cycles are very normal. i know it is very frustrating i was gonna give up on ttc but some girls supported me and im feeling much better now. i wanna start trying royal jelly and bee pollen since they are natural and seem to help.
dont feel sad and always remember ur not alone

 

[keeleypup]

awww darling sounds like your have such a bad time of it

lots of love and hugs to you and your OH x x x x x x x x x

 

[prettynpink29]

thanks girls!! your kind words mean so much!

I don't know how I am ever gonna make this decision.. Or how I will know it is the rite decision for us

 

[Melanya7]

I'm sorry for your frustration; I can relate.


I am feeling the same way. I'm 30 and DH is 33. We've only been trying for 3 months but I have stage 3 endo and tend to get blood-filled cysts, pre and post AF spotting and clotting.

This month we are going to try accupunture, massage and herbs hoping to avoid another LAP.

 

[prettynpink29]

I'm sorry for your frustration; I can relate.


I am feeling the same way. I'm 30 and DH is 33. We've only been trying for 3 months but I have stage 3 endo and tend to get blood-filled cysts, pre and post AF spotting and clotting.

This month we are going to try accupunture, massage and herbs hoping to avoid another LAP.

wow we do have a lot in common! I so suffer from blood filled cysts and abnormal bleeding. I have been anemic several times due to the bleeding. It has gotten a lot better since my HSC in the end of June. I have managed to have 3 "normal" (bleeding wise) cycles.. But I have a horrible history with cysts.. It is so frustrating!

How many surgeries have you had for the endo?

I am going to be starting acupuncture also/ even if we choose to do egg retrieval. At what point will your doctors be willing to give you meds or injectables?

 

[Melanya7]

I had a HSC, excision of cysts and endo last July. It took me 4 years to find someone who would diagnose me after several doctors told me things were "just fine" and offered me BCPs or antibiotics if a cyst ruptured.

I now work with a doctor affliated with FertilityCare. At first my ovarian and pain response were better than most, so we were hopeful the endo was at bay. However, now the symptoms are creeping back up. If I can't concieve by December, we'll start to be more aggressive (DH wants to try his way until then-diet and Chinese medicine). Before surgery, I was on vaginal progesterone post-peak, low dose naltrexone, vitamin b-6, and proxicam for pain.

I want to give my body a chance to do things on its own, but with every I feel worse. I've heard great things about accupuncture and it's success.

How far apart were your LAPs? Do you have a positive family history? My gram had it. I've also heard a positive correlation for young onset of menses, reddish hair and freckles, and skin allergies.

 

[prettynpink29]

I understand giving your body a chance. I tried for the same thing. But time is very special when you have endo. Every time you have a period, there is a chance that the endo is growing. That is what scares me a lot. Stage 4 is as high as it goes, and I already have that.

My pain started at age 16. I started my period at age 15. My mom took me to doctor after doctor who just put me on BCP and said it was normal, even though my mom knew it wasn't. A cyst was discovered age 17 which is when I met my amazing dr that I still have to this day. My first surgery was in 2007 at age 18 to remove the cyst. That is when I found out I had stage 2 endo. The pain never got better. So exactly 2 years later 2009 age 20 I had my second surgery with an endo specialist and my endo had gone to stage 4. The pain was so much better for about a year, until I had a miscarriage, then it all came back. The beginning of this year I was told this is my chance to have children, so we immediately started ttc. I bled for 4 months after stopping the pill and that is when I had my 3rd surgery in june. Not lap/ I had hsc and hsg.

Yes, I have 2 aunts and a grandma with endo. And yes, red hair and freckles do run in our family as well. Lol

 

[prettynpink29]

Also my 1 aunt who had it, passed away from surgery to remove it off her bowels.

 

[Abii]

Awwhh, im sorry to hear that, but i know what you mean
ive been TTC for over a year and i feel the same way sometimes.
have you tried going on bc for a few months and then TTC?
because thats what i did and i feel somewhat like i might have concieved.
still waiting to test though.
best wishes and lots of baby dust:]

 

[dizzy65]

big

 

[prettynpink29]

abii I was on BCP from age 16-21. I just came off of it in Feb when we started TTC. I bled for 4 months straight coming off the pill and was severely anemic. That is what lead to the HSC in June, to stop the bleeding. Unfortunately, I don't think I will ever go on BCP again after what I experienced when coming off of it.

But i hope it all works out for you and this is your month!!! Good Luck!!

 

[TeddyBearPug]

I'm sorry your having such a hard time all i can say is you only know what is right for you and your family. Have you looked into IUI with injectibles? I hear that has a good success rate. Did some of your surgeries in the past cause scar tissue? I have been ttc for 17 cycles now and i wish i could tell you it gets easier. Some times it does and then there are times when you get down. Just let yourself feel down and you can pick yourself back up when your ready.

 

[Abii]

oh my:/
im sorry, i didn't know.
are you dpo?

 

[prettynpink29]

well I am not sure.. 2maros temp should tell

I had a confusing morning and woke up early then usual, then fell back asleep and woke up later than usual.. So I had to convert my temp.. my higher temp FF made me 3dpo, but with the lower temp no O. I am pretty sure today is O day because I have been having pain since early this morning and EWCM yesterday. I have had +opks since Monday. Checked my cervix and it is high and open, so I think today is the day!

 

[CuddleBunny]

My heart goes out to you pretty! We have were NTNP for about 8 months, and just started actively TTC. Of course now I am thinking "well why DIDN'T I get pregnant in those 8 months? We sure did have enough sex!". TTC can be hard...and I am too much of a wuss to find out if I have any fertility problems in fear of having all the thoughts you have right now lol. I admire your strength -- good luck catching that eggy this cycle!!