Im feeling so low at the moment. All the rubbish i have going on with my ex isnt helping but im really struggling at the moment. I had a sterilization op last Wednesday, contraception has failed me so many times, all 3 of my children were pill babies. So i made the decision to have the op. I was alittle low after due to the finality of it, end of an era so to speak. What im finding hard is the no help whilst im recovering part. My mum is never here for me , even though she lives a twenty minute drive away, and ive been told off by my GP for overdoing it. But what am i supposed to do, theres noone else to cook, clean etc. I have now been told to start taking all my painkillers the hospital prescribed againand not lift as much, but it breaks my heart when Nieve comes to me arms outstretched and im in to much pain to hold her. Sorry for sounding so moany, i just needed to offload.