I don't know if I belong here...but I havent spoken to anyone and I just need to talk to someone.... On March 15 I underwent a total abdominal hysterectomy, it was not planned and I had no intentions of having this done. I had some internal bleeding which was due to ovarian torson. I underwent the surgery and when I awoke the next day the doctor came in to tell me the news. I had a terrible infection, and a massive amount of internal bleeding...I was so sad that everything was taken away but I knew it had to be done. Then she went on to tell me more.....that I was about 9 weeks pregnant and they had to remove everything so obviously this meant to take the baby as well...... Ladies I had no clue I was pregnant, I know they did a pregnancy test and that had come back negative so I didnt have any feeling of being pregnant. I had been bleeding for a few weeks so didnt think anything of it. So, I lost my baby that day. And not even my husband knows about this. I havent talked to anyone. He was at home with our boys the day the doctor told me the news and I just have not said and word. But it's eating me alive everyday. I work in a hospital and everytime I go to the OB floor I break down crying. Everyone just thinks it's because I had a hysterectomy at the age of 22..but no one knows that I lost a baby at this point too. I am heartbroken and dont know what to do. I am blessed with 3 beautiful boys and I thank God everyday. I hope it's okay that I posted in here, and Big to you all. It hurts soo much because all of my close friends are pregnant and they always tell me , dont be sad you have 3 kids...yet they dont know the whole thing. I never went to have a funeral for my baby or anything and I feel so guilty too.